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theRoad

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

sometimes we walk in the roads unknown
without any thought on where we would go
carrying the expectation in the end


sometimes we walk in dark highways
that give us chill as we step one by one
taking courage of stepping into the dark


sometimes we walk in the rough roads
when we seems to sit down and get tired of moving forward
deciding when will we give up


sometimes we walk in the bright highways
when we can see everything under the light
but not sure everything is all bright


sometimes we walk seeking for the nearest stopover
to relax a little and rest a little
without any thought that it could be the last stop


sometimes we look into our feet
that can collapse anytime
it might be a reason of surrender


sometimes we walk in this journey alone
sometimes we feel that we're walking alone


but as we walk we know that there's a sunset
knowing that endings can be good


along the journey, we carry the CROSS in our back
following what we believe in
and where our faith is


that we will hear those bright words that will melt our hearts and transform it into tears. along the roads, He never leaves us.
and we are now stronger.


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Live
Love
Forgive
Never Give Up


•Show Me•Grow Me•Hold Me•


I am God's Original Masterpiece.
I am God's Workmanship.
I am BELONG to GOD
iBLoG
i Believe Love and Obey GOD.
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19

Monday, November 28, 2011

i don't have any BiG TiME wish or BiG TiME gift or BiG TiME expectation or ANY BiG TiMEs for my BiRTHDAY..
I know my long standing prayers will be answered on the perfect time, not my own, but God's.




i just want it to be simple, to celebrate it with my father here on earth and of course with My Father in Heaven, my family here in home and of course in the Church.


how i look forward for someone who will sing me "When I Hear You Call by Gary V." or "My Wish by Rascal Flatts". I don't expect but it would be great if it'll happen.



I'll just entrust God for everything in this day.

Happy Birthday to ME! :)



Live
Love
Forgive
Never Give Up


•Show Me•Grow Me•Hold Me•


I am God's Original Masterpiece.
I am God's Workmanship.
I am belong to God
iBLoG
i Believe Love and Obey GOD.
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and fading (Pre-Birthday Event)

Monday, November 28, 2011



18 years and its fading.
today is the last page for this chapter and any minutes now, I'm in the next chapter. chapter 19.


i feel so good today.
I woke up around 6am, i talked to God while doing stuffs.
i supposed to be in North Gate in Alabang, searching for a job but i stayed home. 


Grace asked me through SMS "asan ka?"
I thought it was mistakenly sent to me, so i laugh and asked her. she said not.at nagpapasama s'ya sa Munisipyo for the requirements.


11:30am - 2:30pm
      *I'm with Grace
      *She gave me Burger McDo
      *we went to City Hall - South Station - Pure Gold Alabang
      *we just talk about everything we want to as we wait for denise.
      *She left me alone so she can pass her requirements for her job while I play games on her iTouch


2:30pm - 6:00pm
      *I'm with Grace and Denise
      *We talk as much as we can
      *We ate Okeji, the burger Grace gave me, Tommy, Lugaw.
      *We walked from Pure Gold alabang to Festival Mall


6:00pm - 8:00pm
      *I'm now with Christelle and Camille
     *We went to our home
     *We brainstorm for Camille's Project in Web Development
     *We walked from our home to Baywalk while talking much


very tiring but very much happy
I thank God for this day
the last day of 18 and it's fading. :)



Live
Love
Forgive
Never Give Up


•Show Me•Grow Me•Hold Me•


I am God's Original Masterpiece.
I am God's Workmanship.
I am belong to God


iBLoG
i Believe Love and Obey GOD.
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Happy 2nd Birthday Mevon

Tuesday, November 22, 2011


2 years na! haha!
2 years na kong nakikipagkwentuhan, nakikipagemohan at nagpapakabaliw sa mundo ng blogs.
2 years old na si Mevon.. nung meron?


I'm planning things for the future but for now, i want to enjoy what i have.
still exercising my FAITH and building TRUST to the LORD
i thank God for the words that flows in to my mind that keep me blogging until now.


hello Mevon, GREATER THINGS have yet to COME. :)


Live
Love
Forgive
Never Give Up


•Show Me•Grow Me•Hold Me•


I am God's Original Masterpiece.
I am God's Workmanship.
I am belong to God
iBLoG
i Believe Love and Obey GOD.
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It's about Jesus!

The Room

Monday, November 21, 2011



if you read Joshua Harris' THE ROOM! you already know this.
the last time that i went to Starmall i went in a bookstore, the Philippine Christian Bookstore or PCBS, i'm always there when i was schooling. i browse different books.. then a title snatch my attention, i saw Joshua Harris' The Room. i read it.. a song played on the background.. i knew the song, it was Heart of Worship.. i want to cry that very moment as i read The Room.


now, i want to write down The Room of Joshua Harris in my own words. i just want to make it personal.
i do not own this. it's from Joshua Harris. :)


The ROOM..


i woke up lying in a dark room.. curiously tamed to the files around me. i look to my left and saw seemingly endless as well as i look into my right, out of curiosity in silence, draw near to a wall of files that hooked my attention. it has a caption "Girls i have liked", i pull the drawer out and begun flipping index cards.. i immediately shut it back as i realize that i knew everyone written in every index card.


I knew where i am, this is where everything kept, every thoughts, every emotions and every record in my life, i can't even remember most of it. here in lifeless room, i keep browsing over the files, one after another.. "Song I've Listened to", "Jokes I Laugh at", "Done in Anger", "Things I utter on my Enemies", "Blogs I've read", "Movies I've watched", "Lies I've Told", "best friends", "friends i betrayed", "rumors I've told", "Done in Danger", "Siblings Rivalry".


"this can't be true" i said but those index cards, those files were written in my own handwriting and each signed by my own signature. the "Songs I've Listened to" cabinet, were so full and as i open it, i realized that it they're not good quality music. i found "Lustful Thoughts", i feel a chill around me. i draw out the drawer and start picking index cards, every detail was written. i was like a raging animal as try to broke the cabinet, but suddenly it always came back to its right place. I was helpless, and on the other side I saw a Title called "I Shared the Gospel with", i came right next to it expecting what I'm expecting and as i open it, its almost empty.


I feel the shame over me, how come i called myself a Christian? I fell down to cry. no one seems to hear me in that  room. it tears me up inside out after knowing those things. as i sob, i saw Him entered the room.


Him?
please, not Him
Anyone but Him.
not here.


He opens every file, reads every index card. do He have to do this? I saw sorrow on His face, deeper than mine. Finally He looked at me from the other side of the room, i saw pity from His face, i dropped my head down and cry even more. Jesus walked right in front of me, He cried with me while He wrapped His arms around me and said nothing, and He stood up. i looked at Him. 


He went back to the files start wiping my name out and replacing it with His own. I said "NO", then i pulled the cards from Him, His name shouldn't be there. but as i looked in the index card, my name was replaced in His own, and it was written with His blood. He took the card from me and smile. He did the same into all the files, I'm not sure how He did it quickly and then, He put His hand on my shoulder and whispered "it is done"..


He led me out of the room and close the door, but it has no lock, for there are still files to be written.


*Again credits to Joshua Harris for this, i only rewrite this, so i can feel it personally. :)
*Thank You Lord for Joshua Harris.
*Thank You Lord for this message. 





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Love
Forgive
Never Give Up




iBloG
i Believe, Love and Obey God
~sebajisoka


KKB

Hannah Joy's Debut

Monday, November 21, 2011

as usual. its late.
last November 7, an event happened in our church.
the debut of Hannah Joy Pama, s'ya ay aking kinakapatid. :)
well, first time kong makasama sa mag-oorganize ng isang debut. so excited ako. together with TF's. there maybe difficulties around while we are planning about everything. the picture shown below were randomly uploaded


KKBoys at ang debutante


if you can see the icing on my face, well, that's the coolest part of the program

because we start playing around with the cake.

After the debut, show me a picture of GAY

official! :)

Photobooth

1st time to be a part of 18 roses

:)

:D

:O

XD

:))

;)

woah.


while were preparing for her day

you've read it right

we're preparing while she's watching

me, charlie and our beloved kuya JOEL

hahaha!
Hannah Debut AVP
its a day to remember. :))


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Love
Forgive
Never Give Up


iBloG
i Believe, Love and Obey God
~sebajisoka

It's about Jesus!

things that's not meant for me.

Monday, November 21, 2011

assumption flows like a river from a falls, asking God why everything seems undefined and depressing.

is this a part of His plan?

one day, i was praying for something i believe in, no burden, no worries i just believe and start letting everything fall in the right place where i planned to. as time goes, everything goes so well and no hurries until it came to a time that i need to feel the REAL RIGHT feeling that wasn't part of my plan.

I look into my own eyes and start bearing ant bites, yeah it hurts a little. but it still hurts, it still have pain. i don't want to be so obvious, so i let it go, i don't even freak out that time. and i climb up to my heart and start yelling right at its door, i have no idea if the pain will vanish.


i take it lightly, i also find a way out of that scene, good thing someone found one for me. so i went outside my heart and decided to leave it alone, i bet it can survive on his own. its nothing, its just a feeling that can pass by for a day or another.

i know it hurts me, but most people hurt more than i do.
i can do more than I've done in the past if i'm totally dedicated into.
i can call it mild pain. melancholy on the playlist, what's the big deal by the way?


maybe there are things that can be good as it can be, there are also things that's not meant for me. 

"a pain a day keeps me blogging all the way."


Live
Love
Forgive
Never Give Up






iBloG
i Believe, Love and Obey God
~sebajisoka

KKB

Job Search

Saturday, November 19, 2011

starting last Monday. Hacinth, Denise, Grace and I searched for a job.
Job searching is the easiest in working, what is hard in working is to be hired.
we tried AMDATEX then, hacinth passed the examination while denise passed the interview at savemore.
i waited for hacinth 'til she finish all the interview. i spend lots of time in the mall and hours later Grace came (good thing i have company.) we waited for hacinth and denise in the food court, they are both hired and needed to pass their requirements as soon as possible. 


i went to ortigas the other day, first on my own.
i apply as a Technical Support Representative, i passed the first 2 interview but i didn't continue for the last. My head starts rolling around, so after i ate at Jolibee, i went home, and i slept in the bus which i do not do alone. i felt like i can't go home while walking to the station. buff! XD



Live
Love
Forgive
Never Give Up



iBloG
i Believe, Love and Obey God
~sebajisoka

It's about Jesus!

NYPC

Saturday, November 19, 2011

okay, sobrang late na post 'to.
this was last October 31 to November 2.


ampanget ko. hahaha!




si den at si ako at si christelle


nice aries


si den at si grace at si ako


carlo at dave


Class Picture


break time


:)


oh my! haha! ganyan pala ako pagnakatalikod? :)


sino yung katabi ko? right side?




with parekoy. anlabu. XD






with ate cheng.
it's a 3day prophetic experience, i thank God for the lives of the Prophets and the other speakers. in this last generation, God will use the youths of today for the big time harvest of souls. 

sanctification of the youths is required to be a part in the ARMY of GOD.
as well as Holiness and the knowledge of God.


Lord, use me in this END-TIME.
sanctify me and make me be a part of something HOLY.
Let Your WILL be DONE in my LIFE.

Live
Love
Forgive
Never Give Up



iBloG
i Believe, Love and Obey God
~sebajisoka


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BATA! pfff..

Thursday, November 10, 2011

minsan ba naisip mo na sana naging bata ka nalang habangbuhay? kase ako, madalas napapasagi sa isipan ko yun. pagbata ka kase, di mo kailangan ng maraming faith tester na tinatawag para patatagin ka, dahil habang bata ka, punong puno ang faith-meter mo. madali ka lang din napapasaya dahil masaya ka na sa candy  at limang pisong pambili ng Cupkeyk na mocha.


medyo takot lang sa mga di kaaya-aya sa paningin, pero kumikilala sa mga nakakausap, si nanay ang takbuhan na hindi makaugaga sa pag-alalay sa'yo, at higit sa lahat ang heartbreak ay ang pagkakauntog mo lang sa pader, pagkahulog sa kama, pag-agaw ng kendi at isang iyakan mo lang dito, wala na, fully healed ka na. 


mga laruan ang bestfriends mo. in lab ka pa sa paborito mong robot. sobrang nahihiya ka sa crush mo sa twing inaasar ka ng mga magulang mo t'wing dumadating s'ya. 


iiyak na yan
di ka rin emo nuon..
mahilig ka lang mangalikot at gumawa ng mga bagay na hindi mo rin alam. inosente! yan ang term para sa mga bata. walang kamuang-muang. wala daw alam.


bakit kase kailangan pang tumanda at magbago lahat.. bakit pa kase kailangang bumaksak at mauntog ng malakas, mahulog sa kamang mataas, agawan ng pinakamamahal at ang isang iyakan ay hindi sapat upang maghilom ang bawat sugat na natamo sanhi ng pasakit ng buhay.


masakit sa ulo, masakit sa puso, nandito pa rin ang kirot na nararamdaman mula sa bangungot ng nakaraan. kailan ko kaya mararanasang muli ang tumayo at lumabas ng kwarto ng may angking lakas at pusong matibay para sa iba't-ibang pagsubok ng buhay na palaging naka-amba sa pintuan ng kwarto ko. nakakasawa na ring umiyak, parang wala namang nakikinig. ako nalang ang nabibingi sa hagulgol ng boses kong di mawari ang nais ipahiwatig.


nais ko na lamang ipikit ang mga matang ito at manahimik, iisa-isahin ang paglalaro ng talambuhay ko.. mga sikretong dulot ng luhang ibinigay ng mundong mapanakit.



tatahan na yan





Live
Love
Forgive
Never Give Up




iBloG
i Believe, Love and Obey God
~sebajisoka

It's about Jesus!

Adam and Eve

Thursday, November 10, 2011

sometimes i close my eyes in silence and start looking from afar. thoughts are rushing inside my head as i wait for nothing. it seems like i'm in a movie, talking to myself inside of me, i start being sad right now for the reason of unworthiness, is this the impact to me for being single all this years? i have no heavy feelings for anyone nor i'm in love.


i just feel empty, a part of me is totally empty. maybe its an unending journey as i search for it.


i was talking to my best friends last Wednesday (11.02.2011) when i realized something, well, He was struggling with his relationship with his girlfriend then me and my best friend gave him advice.


i saw a picture of Adam and Eve.
God created adan and while adam is busy doing the will of God and the ministry God entrusted to him (that is naming animals, taking care of the garden of eden) God saw a need.. so when adam sleeps He took a flesh from Adam and He created eve and eve wait for adam to woke up.




what i see:
for guys, do the will of God. darating sya.
for girls, God will lead you to the guys. and when God finally direct you to the right one, don't wake them up when they are sleeping. wait him to woke up by himself.



Live
Love
Forgive
Never Give Up




iBloG
i Believe, Love and Obey God
~sebajisoka


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freaking UNKNOWN

Tuesday, November 08, 2011

the very first reason why i named it unknown
basically i don't want any exposure of YOU in ME
maybe for interactive disaster of social things 
i would never explain anything but the pain


the pain of knowing the unknown truth through the use of pain killers of life
i want to know the deep emotion you have there, maybe inside but in outside as well, i don't want to be kicked out in your life nor overtakes me from running with you, making face is my weapon to hide the obvious emotion flowing from within


do i really have to suffer from this kind of break down?
do i really have to experience this?
knowing my place in your heart is what i call treasure but knowing that you have a specially made room in that heart is beyond any Gold and Silver.




but blah blah and pfff makes me feel worth the pain and to start drifting into heart welcoming scenes


what can i do to make myself OKAY?
good thing i found someone who makes me smile at the end of the DAY.



Live
Love
Forgive
Never Give Up

iBloG
i Believe, Love and Obey God
~sebajisoka

It's about Jesus!

NYPCclosingPRAYER.

Friday, November 04, 2011


i was playing around with my best friends hacinth and charlie before the National Youth Prophetic Conference closes in prayer. we've prayed for the speakers specially Prophet Bro. Sadhu Sundar Selvaraj (Jesus Ministries), Bro. Vincent Selvakumar (Voice of Jesus Ministries) and Pastor Joe Sweet (Shekinah Worship Center).


then the pastors ask us to utter prayer for them. as i pray.. God showed me something, its not a vision but realization. i said to myself, maybe those prophets are right, maybe they're telling the truth that the END is REALLY NEAR and WE are the LAST GENERATION. that question came into my mind when God reminded me about my prayer early this year.


i have this desire to have an intimacy with God, that's one of my goal, and the EGRs, conference and spiritual guide books seems like its all planned by God to equip me for a greater battle in the coming years. He helped me to grow SPIRITUALLY.  God will use this generation for a larger HARVEST of SOULS for GOD.


here i am LORD, SEND ME!




here we are LORD, send us.
WE ARE THE ARROWS
WE ARE THE BRIDE WARRIOR of CHRIST


LET YOUR WILL BE DONE in MY LIFE.


And afterward, I will pour out my Spirit on all people. Your sons and daughters will prophesy, your old men will dream dreams, your young men will see visions.
JOEL 2:28


POURoutYOURspiritONme


Live
Love
Forgive
Never Give Up

iBloG
i Believe, Love and Obey God
~sebajisoka

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