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Stomping the roses

Thursday, March 29, 2012

bop pop bop pop. I feel like dancing and singing. c'mon. XD

Hey! I want to talk to you. I just want to share this to you, would you bear with me?

Left Behind 

for 3 days in a row, i slept 5am. after I spend my night on PC, I'll watch a movie on my tablet. I already watched Left Behind, Left Behind II - Tribulation Force and Left Behind III - World at War. its about the rapture of the church, when God takes every believer and every child to heaven, what will happen to the remaining individuals who are left behind. i was amazed on how every prophesy fulfilled. the codes. every part. I don't want to be left behind, but if i do. I'll make sure I'm going to follow His will.

but today, I'm on struggle. seems like I'm on a bondage. I really need empowerment. but how? where? situations is pulling me down. I'm tired. people is just being people. what can i do? 

Jigsaw Puzzle

I was walking back and fort in sunken garden. waiting for a revelation from God. I thought about lots of things and i wonder how can i be like Bill Gates, Steve Jobs, etcetera. I'm not aiming for the money but for the contribution to the world. how? Honestly I can't see any major hindrances but me. but if there's any, let me know. i hate procrastination. Lord, let Your will be done.

Skyscraper


You can take everything i have, you can break everything i am like i’m made of glass like i’m made of paper, go on and try to tear me down i will be rising from the groundlike a skyscraper. I'll be rising baby. wait for it. :o

Stomping the roses

sometimes i feel like getting out of the world and just walk, run and bike with videocam, music player and a tablet with a solar panel charger. I just want to go into the world on road trip. basically, i want to be free! how I wish to know nothing about gossip, issues, burdens. so i can easily jump out of joy. so tired of this.. carry me away! Did you ever feel like stomping the roses? 

wait for it. 
i know the picture below does not fit the caption. XD


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Never Give Up


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KKB

You're all I want

Monday, March 19, 2012



Sunday morning. i woke up late and almost late for the service, my body is in ache but i need to meet God.there's 2 things in my mind: Everything Skit & Krizza + Rachel's last Sunday in Muntinlupa. 


after praise and worship. I talked to those who participate in the Skit. one by one we went downstairs for the ONE LAST PRACTICE. as we wait for others, we have this little talk, then Joan and Denise came, saying "Preaching Time" daw sabe ni Ptra. I was expecting it. We didn't went up right after it. we just wait for the others. when Hacinth, Hazel and Karl came.. i went up to talk to ptra. she get angry at me, us. she said that there will be no presentation of the kkbs. i went downstairs again, everybody's upset with annoyance and felt bad about it.


in sadness, we went up. I'm trying to be calm, I prayed in the spirit while in Victory Proclamation. after that, i went up the stage. I Exhort the Tithes and Offering. I thank God that i found confidence in Him. I went down the stage and went to projector's. talked to charlie. and ptra adds up in the preaching and i know she said things especially made for us. then she prayed. after the prayer she announced that she'll talk to the kkbs.


upon entering the room, i expect ptra is angry. everybody is in frown, but only ptra has the smile. she talked to us in lovingly manner. she talked to us gently. she asked us a question. one by one.. that brought emotions in the atmosphere: mahal mo ba ang church? mahal mo ba ako? a personal question. 


we faced different matters. my eyes is on watery moment, I don't want to cry. but when hacinth was asked.. she cried. I burst into tears then. everyone cried. not sure if everyone but most of us. when i look to krizza and rachel, they were crying too. Ptra, said things for us. for she loves us, this is a discipline. she tell hazel that God is preparing her into great things. and ptra told me that i have a calling, different calling and I'm not adopted then she smiles.


we prayed. restored. and we're now allowed to present Everything Skit.
I didn't function for 2nd service. charlie did. I miss worshiping God as one of the congregation. our presentation is scheduled after the closing prayer. 
Credits to Clarisse for this Video. :)
the first time I saw this skit was The Youth Summit 2009 "WiLDFiRE"
then, we planned to perform this skit since early 2010. well, i guess this is the right time for this.we have the perfect cast. hahaha! at least we think so. but before the actual presentation we're in nerve. I, myself don't know what to do. walking back and forth.  then, we prayed out of it. 
guess what, after the presentation, our sweat then came. XD


The Feedbacks
    I saw tears around the congregation. nahahawa nga ako e. sobrang thankful ako sa Lord. lalu nung nakita ko si ate Leny at ate Chit na naiyak. tapos sinabe pa ni ate chit na pina-iyak nio kame.  and others said na pang anniversary daw at ang galing daw.. ang sabe nga nila bagay daw saken ung role ko. dko alam kung insulto o ano. hahaha! :D





Krizza and Rachel said Goodbye. mamimiss ko tong dalawa. hai.. 
I asked Rachel for remembrance, I got a baller. kitakits on Youth Summit. :)




before the day ends, we're into reports. then later, Ptra said we can finish it the following day and we should packed up. i wonder why. she then asked us where do we want, Festival, Starmall or SM Muntinlupa and she also asked for the restaurant.  I didn't suggest anything.


we end up in Festival Mall and have a walk along inside. then we eat at KFC. 
got full because of gravy. we also saw sembrero family there. sila ate kat, kuya alber at ate cha. well, as always when ate kat talked to me, I'm being mute. we went home around 9pm? 






Thank You Father, You've used us to minister using this skit.


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Monday, March 19, 2012





March 17, Saturday. 9:00am
JAM/VIA's Practice.
Only Jasmin and I attended the practice among the other KKBs. 
i woke up that day receiving Jasmin's SMS.

So I hurried up in church, I didn't expect what i see, heard and know there.
they talked about our ministry and the involvement of the kkbs. there are issues, there are things needed to be justified. we're always one step closer to excellence. as always. 

the practice ended early, as expected, we have to wait until 2pm for the practice of the skit. so, Jas and I jammed and it didn't last. so we decided to go to SM Muntinlupa, we bought things what her mom instruct us and eat at McDonalds. thanks to ate Leny for it. :)

then, we went to sunken, now I'm with hacinth and hazel.
I always feel awkward in this situation. so i keep quiet, thinking of things that i should or shouldn't do. when I caught up confidence, I speak. i want to make things clear, so I ask them questions. basically, I don't want to lose in that argument but realizing where things will go I just kept silent, well I discern things. I don't know if I've done the right thing but i guess its not the right time for me to talk harshly. good thing i heard the other side.

I can't say that I can't blame any of them, when it comes to blaming someone. I blame.. both sides. there are things needed to be understood.
although, I didn't say the hurting words I pray that God will still move in our lives. teaching us. discipline us and loving us.

after that, the day go so well. we start the practice full of laughs.
we ate Marty's, Cheese Ring and Wafer. we start in fresh soil and end up in grassland. its not perfect. its not good. but we have confidence to the Lord.
we start right 'cause we start in prayer and we end right 'cause we end in prayer. thanks to Balajadia's, we have this free fare. :)

we just get exhausted. relax a bit mode.

sa kawayanan.

up up in a hill. 

no words can describe. LOL

look at me! I'm doing it right. :D




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Love
Forgive
Never Give Up


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It's about Jesus!

Logos Hope

Friday, March 16, 2012

Last Saturday was the celebration of Sis. Venia's Birthday and a bonding moment with my fellow disciples. it was a day of informing happiness. 


at 8AM, i went to church to bring the sack of rice upstairs but i end up playing the guitar and singing the revised version of my song. moments later, i went downstairs to buy plastic, newspaper and i forgot the other one. haha! there was charlie, so i asked him to go with me.


in church, bro.orly came and start bringing the sack of rice up. He's so strong. I can't even carry one sack upstairs. but as everyone prepares.. Me and charlie were sticky, if you know what i mean. sweat. xD
before going to Manila. Ptra noticed that majority of us were in red. well, not me! so everyone who wears any color but red must changed it. so do I. 




we ate. we took pictures (seems like a photo shoot). we chaffed and be amazed inside Logos Hope (the world's largest floating book fair) 
what we ate, all time favorite CHICKEN and ADOBO by kuya Ecko. 
plus the baon of our chikiting, Hannah Faith. :)


now, look! :)
Inside the vehicle.. youngsters at the back. :)

After lunch, otw to Logos Hope

upon entering the gate, seeing that huge boat.

Logos Hope, here we come

I know, I know, we take pictures everywhere, everytime there's a calling of it.

simple, little orientation and simple, little boat.
Inside the bookstore

after buying at book fair: at our back is the story board of the prodigal son.

Ate joan, early for their worship jam.

Ate Jane too. :)

Here you go. :)

this photo was taken while i talk to ate Jane regarding KKB/CYN Web Radio. :)
cool talking to her. :)

ready to go home.. 

we're doing it right. :)
i saw books. i took pictures. but I can't find my USB port. :(


anyway, before we go home, we went to star city to park and eat. :)
I'm already exhausted but it seems like situation doesn't allow you to rest.
after eating, we watched the fireworks in MOA.. everyone went out of the vehicle except me, charlie and grace.


its a long way home. there's a tear on my eyes when i noticed the silence and turn my headphones on. Mood swing ba?. di naman. sandali lang naman yung naramdaman kong yun. about saken lang.  


Taking hold, breaking in, the pressures all need to circulate.



Live
Love
Forgive
Never Give Up


iBLoG
i Believe Love and Obey GOD.
Jabes, God's Original Masterpiece

KKB

Dreamer

Friday, March 16, 2012

all of us can be a dreamer. thinking, wishing and visualizing things you want.


Last March 2. we, the KKBs has a free ticket on a Musicale Play called "Dreamer", thanks to Bro. Bandong. I send messages to them regarding the play, who will come and who will not.. there's lot of tickets given away by sir Bandong. too bad only 5 of us came.

I'm disappointed to those people who weren't able to go to the said musical play. they said they will, they took the ticket saying they're sure.. I understand those who messaged me and state their excuse. but for the others. I don't think so. hahaha! its not my lost anyway. not really mad btw. :)

we're late because we don't know how to go there. but totally worth it, totally. I'm so inspired. really. its about Joseph the Dreamer..
if God has a VISION, NOTHING can STOP GOD. 



I want to be a DREAMER.. Dreaming God's DREAM. :)


Live
Love
Forgive
Never Give Up

iBLoG
i Believe Love and Obey GOD.
Jabes, God's Original Masterpiece

Concert Scenes

Planetshakers, Israel Hougton and New Breed Concert

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Planetshakers, Israel Hougton and New Breed has a concert here in the Philippines. i badly want to go there, to see two worship teams in one night is such a wonderful blessing from the Lord. 
Lord, i pray that i can be one of the crowd that night.. with my friends. Thank You Father. Amen. :)

It's about Jesus!

Hold your breath then go

Sunday, March 11, 2012

kung mapapansin ng readers ng blog na 'to, kung meron man. mahilig akong magpost ng mga burdens into hidden identity through mash-up words. maybe you're thinking na I'm such a person that can't say anything at matapang lang  pag sa blog. say all you want but, ang hirap din kaseng ilabas. knowing that the person involve can't understand you..
its not they don't want to listen but they just CAN'T.


i feel heavily broken. i can't say a thing to anyone personally.
bladed words they say. i can choose not be affected but i guess if i try not to be in the scene.. I'm not doing it right. i have a responsibility and burdens were bringing me always in this place. Lord help us.




i love sharing this thought:
as we run in our life's journey, many will try to pull us down, many will hurt us, let us be stumbled. but those who turn their eyes upon Jesus, will still be invulnerable.


i need to look unto Jesus! Lord Help us carry this burdens or will You just take it all from us?



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Love
Forgive
Never Give Up
God's Original Masterpiece.
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Running is what i can do now

Friday, March 02, 2012

what i feel right now.


i just want to run.. run and run. trying to escape from this world. i hope it'll rain hard while i run. trying to leave everything behind, assuming that i can.


too much for this moment.
i just don't know what to do, i just can't trust anyone..
i feel like exploding that no one can actually hear.
i wonder why, everything i hide in the past is now hunting me.. not one by one but as one. it hurts.. definitely it kills. 


planning and working, nothing really works.


this stupid little kid.. you're so stupid. so stupid.
i just don't feel any good thing in me. in those images in my life.
i feel like crying, no one really helps me.
no one understands me.


as the night go deeper and deeper, things go heavier. 
i wish i can go where i can do anything, where i feel i am free.







Live
Love
Forgive
Never Give Up
God's Original Masterpiece.
God's Workmanship.
God's Property
iBLoG
i Believe Love and Obey GOD.
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