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A Peaceful Last Day

Thursday, February 21, 2013

I have this friend, a really close one, who always talk about being in Heaven. well, heaven is a good place. wait. no! Heaven is indescribably amazing! whenever she talks about it, I feel sad but yet amazed. why? Sad because of that thought that she'll be leaving us, I know its crazy to think that way, but losing a really close friend is unbearable. Amazed, on how she talks about the wonders of heaven, all the comfort, the peace, the fellowship and all its beauty.

Life brings us to that miserable moment and pushes us to think crazy and be crazy enough to do wrong things as a pirated version of the original ones. (peace, love, hope, etc)
its hard. so easy to say. yet so hard to do. 

Just a thought. 
Many says that we should live our lives as if its the last, well, on my head, its like coughing on the hospital while people around you are crying. 

but seriously, what would I do?
maybe I'll spend time with my family, talk to my closest friends, write my final letter to individual persons and will go to a wonderful place/park reminiscing moments of my life. and thanking God for this privilege to live this life and to be able to know Him. 
I want a peaceful last day. :)

how about you?



Tuesday, February 19, 2013

Gusto ko sanang sabihin sa'yo pero paano kapag naririyan ka'y nauutal ako?

May sasabihin ako! kaya't makinig mabuti, ilaan ang atensyon sa bawat salitang mababasa at namnamin ang bawat emosyon na makikita.

sa bawat minutong lumilipas. may isang pasabog ang damdamin. 
merong pakiramdam na napakasaya. damdaming alam ng marami ngunit bago sakin.
paalala, hindi ito tula o kung ano pa man.
subalit sa twing na sasaakin ang pakiramdam na iyon, parang gusto ko na ding gawin ng kakaibang mga tula.

ayan na naman, naririnig mo ba?

minsan naiisip ko, ba't ang bitter ko?
sa twing makakakita ako sa kalsada ng random na magkasintahan eh bumulong ako ng "magbbreak din kayo" at masyado pa kong aware sa mga PDuh (or PDA - Public Display of Attention! oo Attention!)

palagi ko man nababanggit na hindi pa ko pumasok sa isang relasyon na tinatawag na magboyfriend and girlfriend at mejo proud ako kase maiisip ng iba na masyado akong reserved or something like that but if tumingin ako sa other side.
di kaya ang pressure ay nasa mga babae? sila kase ang sasagot ng napakatamis na "oo".
may mga babae kaseng kahit mahal na nila yung lalake, di nila sinasagot sa ilang kadahilanan.
tulad ng hindi pa sila handa, strict ang parents, traumatic experience o maaga pa daw for that kind of relationships.

on my side, di ako nanliligaw. torpe kumbaga, lilipas at lilipas nalang din.
although obvious ako minsan, kahit anong pilit mo.
mananatili ka lang sa pagpilit at mapapagod 
madalas ko ring pinaglalaruan ang sagot ko para lang makaiwas.

tulad din ng nabanggit ko dati sa ilan kong mga kaibigan
mas lalo akong na-eexcite pag-iniisip ko kung sino yung itinakda ni Lord para sakin.
ayun na nga lang yung kasiyahan ko ngayon. si Lord at ang mga mabubuting kaibigan at pamilya na ineregalo Nya sakin nung pasko pati nung birthday ko.

ang sarap kayang umibig. ang di mag-agree. may poopoo sa ilong. eeew! 

siguro, magiging maganda at okay ang lahat kung matututo lang tayong mag-hintay.



Oh Valentine's Day

Friday, February 15, 2013

What's with this day? I supposed to wear red and be shinny in that heart's day color.hello white!  Do I have a date? Maybe? Yes? No? nehh. does it matter today! 
well, I think it is!

for the first time in my entire existence in the surface of this planet, I asked someone out and that's embarrassing! truly embarrassing as I asked her out. my heart usually pump out blood but the time that I'm waiting for an answer. it's not functioning very well. 
but I received that "waste another day" message. pwew. I feel so glad. so happy. I went to sleep that night smiling and thanking God for that wonderful day. 

Today? I got lots and lots of smiles. I'm carrying that pink rose, looking around and nervous. I'm thinking of stomping the roses that time. singing songs on my head while watching people celebrate this very special day.

I'm flighty, skittery and skittish. I don't know exactly how to handle that excitement and nerve. I just pretend not to feel anything as I saw her going nearer from afar. small talks and smiles. breathe in and breathe out. nerve in and nerve out. I need more air!

She gets angry, I have no words. I put my arms on the desk and head on my arms while eyes on her. deep into her eyes. she dropped hers and I picked out the rose that I hid. I don't know if it surprise her. but I think I made her smile for some reason.

I thought it would end up sadly but we're okay.
that's my date. just some short talks and it ends early.

few minutes date. 


It's about Jesus!

Someone I love

Thursday, February 14, 2013

It's you that I want to be with when I feel so alone
It's you who I want to share everything that I feel
It's you who understand me
It's you who help

Words were not enough
for Your kindness and being tough 
in spite of my coldness and roughness
you're there, You're here

in my heart, You're the voice that I scream
Your grace abounds, Your mercy overflows
You're sweet. I can't thank you enough

because It's You
what can I do?
It is Your Love. 
It is Your Grace. 
It is Your Kindness.

It is You, That I love! ♥

"It’s Valentine’s Day, so write an ode to someone you love."

School Allies


Friday, February 08, 2013

When I was studying at AMA Computer University in Makati, I have this big notebook given to me by my friend, Anne, as a birthday gift. I stayed hours in the library and sleep there. I'm alone, I have no friends there. I mean, the close friend you have.

as my arms lean on the table in that quiet library. words fill up my mind, mixing the emotion that I feel. I can still visualize that very moment I'm writing it. this is simple. yet. simple.

I'm holding my words
I'm searching for the right time
patience is where I stand

Broken words can make
something whole
tears from the past makes me laugh
smiles from the past makes me cry

I still love you
you don't even know it
but what can I do?

I can't leave everything behind
I know I can, but I wont
my cup of hope is full until
the final day

I'm not sure what to feel
but I'm quite sure its you
not the curve line, its you

it's the best of my stored words
but none of them defines my feeling
its beyond words

my hands, your hands were meant to be.
how about us?

Never Give Up


It's about Jesus!

Isang Mabilis Lang

Sunday, February 03, 2013

Sa Isang mabilis mong araw
May Isang mabilis na higop ng kape
Isang mabilis na pag-ligo
isang mabilis na pagbihis, pag-aayos at pagpapabango.

Sa Isang mabilis mong araw may
Isang mabilis na kaway sa kaibigang nakasalubong
Isang mabilis na pagbili ng kendi
Isang mabilis na pagsakay sa transportasyon
Isang mabilis na pag-alalay sa batang paakyat ng jeep

Sa Isang mabilis mong araw may
Isang mabilis na pagtatanong ng direksyon
Isang mabilis na pagttrabaho
Isang mabilis na pag-silip sa iyong facebook account
Isang mabilis na pagngiti sa taong nakasamuha

Sa Isang mabilis mong araw may
Isang mabilis na pakikipagkwentuhan sa katabi
Isang mabilis na pagpapaalam
Isang mabilis na panonood ng telebisyon
Isang mabilis na pag-aaral

Sa Isang mabilis mong araw may
Isang mabilis na pagkain
Isang mabilis na pakikipagusap
Isang mabilis na pagliligpit

Sa Isang mabilis mong araw
may isang Diyos na naghihintay sa isang mabilis mong pagtawag.
Sa Isang mabilis mong araw
may isang Diyos na nag-aabang sa isang mabilis mong pakikipag-usap sa Kanya.
Sa Isang mabilis mong araw
may Isang Diyos na nais kang pagpalain, pagyamanin, protektahan.
Sa Isang mabilis mong araw
'wag kaligtaan ang pananalangin at pakikipagugnayan sa may ari ng lahat ng bagay.

Isang mabilis lang, kaibigan. 

Proverbs 16:3 
Commit to the LORD whatever you do, and your plans will succeed.

Matthew 6:33 
But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

Never Give Up



On "best friends"

Friday, February 01, 2013

How many best friends do you have? I've lost count.
I've known my best friend Raft3r, who recently killed one of the finest Filipino blogs on the planet, since we were seven years old. 
My best friend Mike Cons, singer, songwriter, and marketing genius, was best man at my wedding ten years ago. 
My best friend Ram, a colleague at the church I work for, is a brilliant mind and the gentlest voice of reason I've ever had.
What qualifies a person to become a coveted "best friend," the one above the rest? Why limit yourself to one? Why trust just one friend above all else for advice on everything, when you have at your fingertips so much potential in all your relationships?

Don't settle for one best friend. Make as many best friends as you can. Especially you men.
Author John Eldredge writes in his book, Wild At Heart, that "masculinity is bestowed by masculinity. One learns how to be a man from another man."

Men need men to speak into their lives. When I need godly advice on my relationship with my wife, I go to my best friend, Paolo. When I'm formulating advice on counseling other men, I trust my best friend, Carlos. When I need guidance in my radio career, I contact my best friend, Big Daddy. When I need advice for my investments, I send a DM to my best friend, Randell. When I need some positive thinking, especially in my finances, I call my best friend, Chinkee. When I just need to let my hair down and crack a few jokes, I talk to my best friend, Veejay; when I need a good lunch conversation, I seek out my best friend, Lou.
You get the idea.

Each of these men is the best for me in that particular area. Each of them is a role model, a best friend, who contributes to helping mold me into becoming the best God-servant, husband, father, writer, blogger, radio jock, and overall good guy that I can be.
Each man will impact generations.

You can impact generations.

Be a best friend to as many people as you can. Somewhere out there, there is someone waiting for you to speak life into his or her life. People are desperate and hungry for best friendship. People need role models. People need positive influence. People need relationships.

People need God.

And when it comes to introducing someone to God, few other ways are more powerful than friendship. Few ways are more effective than showing God's love by investing time and effort into a friendship with another person.
Any friendship solidly built with God in the center is destined to be a best friendship.

As my best friend Joey says, discipleship is all about relationship.
So. Who wants to be my best friend? ;)


Ganns Deen is a God-servant, husband, father, writer, blogger, and Christian radio jock on Saved on Energy 106.7 FM. “I'm so excited to write this piece for Jabes,” he says. “His blog is just full of such passion and love for God, and I know he will accomplish amazing things for His glory.”

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