Calibration

Hey! 

It's me again after a few months. 

You know, I'm struggling for a while about some things. It's not that big of a struggle, there are people with much bigger problems than mine. 

Because I thought, I figured it out.
I tried pushing myself to do things for my improvement.

I stopped eating junk, I consumed less food, less rice and less sweet.
I tried to be healthy.

I also tried subscribing to premium online tutorial just to boost my knowledge about the stock market.

I also make it a habit to read the bible every day.

I set goals and put my mindset into a pattern of doing things daily. I even told myself to never stop, that in times that I missed one stuff on my schedule, I just need to go back where I left off instead of trashing it all at once.

But after a few weeks of trying, here I am.
I went back to eating carelessly, I never set time for my self-study of stocks and from reading the bible every day, I just now listen to it through the app.
I got nothing again.

I always go back to the things that I'm comfortable at. I'm not into changes and I have no discipline. I always make excuses and I'm hopeless.

But in my office, one of our life coaches conducted a seminar about minds and its pattern. I plan of having a one-on-one session with him so I could help myself.

While waiting for it. I'll try to push myself again for those changes. 



//Calibration
//sebajisoka

Final Answer

Hey!

Can I ask you 1 thing,

How could I survive without your love? 

I'm a mess. I'm a wreck. I even thought that no one can love me besides God and my family, but there you are, still looking at me like I'm freaking Tony Stark.

Maybe, all I wanted to say is that I appreciate everything that you did for me. For accepting me for who I am and for taking care of me even though I'm stubborn and irresponsible. 

I still think that you're out of my league and that I don't deserve you. I don't know how that makes you feel, but it's the truth.

I wanted to make you happy always because your happiness is my happiness, and I wanted to say sorry for the times that I don't do the things that make you happy. I'm sorry for the empty moments that don't look magical, for the times that I'm unsure of things, and when I do stupid things. 

Thank you for staying and bearing life with me for almost 4 years. I could say that "I could not ask for more" but I really wanted more. I want more time with you, I want to be with you always and for the rest of my life. I want to provide for our needs and even wants.

You're the one that I want to spend the rest of my life with. Final answer. 

//FinalAnswer
//sebajisoka