Hey there, Roach

I'm being reminded from time to time about this experience I had in my elementary days. I'm not sure if I shared it already but, I'll share it again.

In the days of innocence and cartoon characters, there was I, imagining myself watching my favorite Cartoon Network shows. Studying really bored me to death. I only really listen to teachers that I liked. 

To be honest, there were only a handful of teachers that I liked back then. Some of them are not really good either. But above the lessons that they taught us, I remembered some of them because of either their trivia and some negative stuff. 

We had this computer subject back then and my teacher told us something about computers. You know, the basics: software, hardware, and peopleware. But above all of that, I learned about the hardware. He told us that computer components will only fit the specific slot. It reminded me of the kids' toy: Sorting cube. 

I broke so many computers and learned more along the way and what he told us remained true. A really nice lesson that guided me so many times.

But the point of making this blog is to tell a little story about how my classmate teased me back then. Before I tell you this, here are some things that I'd like you to know about me:

- I'm a shy type.

- I'm definitely an introvert.

During that time, I didn't know the concept of introverts and extroverts. I only know one thing: There's something wrong with me. 

Whenever my teacher commanded us to read or when I'm called to recite. My voice shakes and it's in low volume. Some of them, especially my adviser and my math teachers will shout at me and calling me names: Cockroach. 

Why? Cause with the volume of my voice, only cockroaches can hear me. It was the birth of this name I was called back then. 

Is there something wrong with me? I carried that thought as grow up until I learned about introverts. I was so happy thinking that, yeah, I'm normal somehow. I guess?

It was just sad that it was my teachers who brought that name that caused my classmate to tease me endlessly. Because of this, I only hang out with my outcast classmates, maybe because we relate to each other somehow. 

//HeyThereRoach

//sebajisoka

VDM 2k15

January 2, 2k15 means VDM get together again. Because, after years of planning over Facebook, my long lost friends finally make it happen. A day for us and with us.
We, first met at Festival Mall. Those missed high-fives and laughs is here again. We scattered around the mall to find a place to eat.

We end up at KFC in South Station. Yes. We walk, all the way to South Station just to eat. There's money drop and a time to catch up. I was interviewed about my love life. I cannot deny no more to them. So, I answered their questions one by one. Well, binata na ko eh. XD

We're not complete. There's no Jhet nor Angel for some reason. So, only the five of us. Teasing and having fun. Another great way to start the year. We ordered 1 Bucket meal and we add some additional drink and rice and tons of saucy gravy. We ate while telling stories while taking pictures. We're so full when we went back to Festival Mall to have some time at Karaoke. For this is our bonding:

After the Karaoke time, we walk around to this wonderful park (and took pictures and record videos.). The Festival's Riverpark:

And then, we went home. It's a long day of walking and talking. Cheers! Thanks VDM.

//VDM2K15
//sebajisoka

Unexpected Lakad

September 13, 2013

My friend Anne, PM-ed me on Facebook, begging for help, she'll buy a new laptop.
we met at Starmall, search for good-working laptops and went to Festival. there, we went to Goldilocks to say "Hi" to Angel. then, she treat us Lumpiang Sariwa. Delicious. then we stayed for a while. she went under time and informed the rest of VenInoSo De MeSuTo. Errol's is in Festival also, so we don't have a hard time waiting for him. Daryl can't go. as well as McLean. We passed by Jhetro at tom's world and wait for him at foodcourt. Then someone treat us in Roller Coaster. and mini-ferris wheel. and we end up singing in Video-oke. 

Food Trip at our all time meeting place

On the way to coaster

We'll be off any minute now!

Free Ferris wheel

The Ending.

//VDM
//UnexpectedLakad
//Free
//sebajisoka

when was the last time you've read a book?

May barkong lumubog
May kaguluhan sa ibang bansa
May nagnakaw sa kaban ng bayan

tapos ikaw, nagiinternet tapos nakatunganga dito sa article na 'to?
kung umaasa ka na may sense ang patuloy na pagbabasa mo. Ikaw lang ang makakasagot nyan. pero alam mo kase ang pagbabasa ay hindi lang trabaho ng 'yong mata at bibig. Isa itong isang uri ng communication, nakikipag-konek ka sa Idea or thoughts ng writer, magbbring-up ka ng questions kapag may mga malabo sa'yong bagay. Minsan discussion ito na kelangan mo din maki-cooperate at sumagot, tumaliwas at makiayon.

dahil pagnagbasa ka. may natututunan ka. Iba't ibang way ng tao sa paghandle sa buhay. mga istoryang nakakaiyak at kakaiba pero nagagawa nilang naglapasan. sa mga istoryang 'yun tayo'y naiinspire at na momotivate. Minsan pa nga it became our soul food.

Masarap kaseng magbasa. dadalhin ka nito sa isang lugar na di mo pa napupuntahan. Ipapakilala sa mga taong di mo pa namemeet at matututunan ang iba't ibang kaalaman nila sa mundong ito.

when was the last time you've read a book?!




//Books
//sebajisoka

At last!

Finally VenInoSo De MeSuTo had our reunion!
McLean went in our home to talk about things. career stuffs. 
we went to festival to meet other friends and went to ACLC Alabang to take our TORs which we didn't accomplish.

we went back to the mall and start our crazy things that we loved to do before. same old freaking awesome guys! XD

We ate at Paotsin right after that.. and .. Angel's Out! She treat us Ice Cream!

Momma I want an ice cream please. XD

we also find out that Angel's getting married! sweet! :)
and then we took photos, wait for ehloi. and took photos.

it was a haggard but fun day!

//VDM
//CareerTalk
//TwoYearsOlder
//sebajisoka

RA

When I was studying at AMA Computer University in Makati, I have this big notebook given to me by my friend, Anne, as a birthday gift. I stayed hours in the library and sleep there. I'm alone, I have no friends there. I mean, the close friend you have.

as my arms lean on the table in that quiet library. words fill up my mind, mixing the emotion that I feel. I can still visualize that very moment I'm writing it. this is simple. yet. simple.

I'm holding my words

I'm searching for the right time

patience is where I stand

Broken words can make

something whole

tears from the past makes me laugh

smiles from the past makes me cry

I still love you

you don't even know it

but what can I do?

I can't leave everything behind

I know I can, but I wont

my cup of hope is full until

the final day

I'm not sure what to feel

but I'm quite sure its you

not the curve line, its you

it's the best of my stored words

but none of them defines my feeling

its beyond words

my hands, your hands were meant to be.

how about us?

Live

Love

Forgive

Never Give Up

//sebajisoka

Back to school

Why live in ignorance when you can live in extreme dedication in learning.

summer time is over. all the fun of summer, all the outdoors, all the non-stop napping and free time, it all comes to an end. today, many students wore their uniform and went to school. some were excited, some were not. but me?
I'm stuck here typing my blog, scrolling down the news feed, reading tumblr posts and watching other people tweet. Get a life Jabes! but honestly. i want to go back to school. I miss the projects, assignments, reports, exams, the school campus.. everything. well, wait for it.. I LIED! . I just miss my allowance, barkadas, hang-outs. XD kidding.


I miss going to school. I miss listening to professor and the tease with my mates. I stopped going to school last August, our expected money didn't went in, so I've never enrolled on the next semester. I became full time in our church for 9 months, I think?. in 9months God provided my needs. 


there are promotions in that full-time thingy. including heavy reports in MIS and much heavier leading the KKBs, I share in prayer meetings and speak on the stage on the spot. still gaining confidence in this moment. maraming nangyare nung mga araw na yun. kung iisa-isahin ko baka bukas ko na 'to maipost. pero if there a chance na makapag-aral ako. baka ibang course ang kunin ko.


when i was in High school
       flashback lang muna. when i was in high school I have no favorite subject. I'm just a normal student. I'm one of those goodboy in my class, goodboy na pa-easy-easy sa subjects. and then this day came, examination day meron akong 2 subjects na highest ako sa buong class and anung subject?


Math and English.


I don't know, pero di naman ako perfect or less than 5 lang mali, that's when i find out na kaya ko pala. honestly wala akong tiwala sa sarili ko those days,  at ang paniniwala ko ay may mga tao talagang sadyang matalino, kumbaga natural na. kaya naman change of perspective mode ako.


later i find out na may hilig pala ako sa Computer Studies.
so, 3 subjects naghighest ako sa class. proud ako nun sa sarili ko pero pa-humble effect pa din. e pano jan lang ako nag-eenjoy pag-nagrereview at pagdating sa ibang subject, masaya na ko sa 80 na grade. kinig-kinig lang at quiz maya-maya. takot mangopya. ganun.


so, favorite ko ang Math, English at computer subject. angat lang ang Computer tapos English at huli ang Math. eh ganun tayo e.xD


ngayon? balak ko talagang bumili ng DSLR at Magbusiness. pero kelangan ng capital syempre. I'm still waiting kung ano ang plano ni Lord saken. ang dami ko kaseng reservation sa kokote ko. 


kaya eto ako. hahaha!


God has a plan for me.
and what ever happens to me i know that all things work together of my good. :)



iBLoG
i Believe Love and Obey GOD.
Jabes is EXTREME! 

VDM Reunited.. wait.. 1, 2, 3, 4 and some stanger?

Sunday Afternoon, around 3pm

after being in the church, i said my 'goodbye' to my kkb pals. of course hurried ako. kase 12nn ang napag-usapan pero nagpaalam naman ako kaya tingin ko okay lang. pero sa natitirang load sa phone ko. nagtext ako kay McLean. confirmed na nandun na sya pero mag-isa lang daw siya. kaya napamadali ako. namimiss ko na kase tong taong 'to e. teka, tao nga ba 'to?. haha! pagdating ko sa paboritong meeting place namen nakita ko sya na nakatalikod, mejo kakaiba lang ngayon kesa sa nakasanayan kong itchura ng likod nia. ang TABA nia kase. hahaha!


nakangiti kaagad ako nung pag-upo ko. grabe yung tinaba nia. hahaha! syempre nag-usap kame, nagkamustahan.. ayun. eto yung isa sa mga totoong kaibigan ko e. "you know! si daddy!" haha! expression namen yan. natutuwa lang ako sa kanya kase sya ngayon ang pinagtatanungan ko about DSLRs. photographer kase sya sa bulacan, ayan na din yung dahilan kung bakit sya tumaba. nabanggit ko sa kanya yung gusto kong DSLR, sbe ko yung Canon EOS 5D, sbe nia yung mark ii? mahal yun. tinawanan nia ko. haha! anyway, mahal talaga yun around 100k yun sa pagkakaalam ko. XD


after namen magkwentuhan sa foodcourt, nag-ikot muna kame habang hinihintay si ehloi. tapos inaalala yung mga memories namen sa ACLC.. ang saya lang at nakakamiss. tapos tumayo na kame para salubungin si ehloi. sa di inaaasahang pagkakataon, nandun din si anne kasama yung kaibigan nia, magsisimba daw muna sila. so hinintay namen sila bago kumaen. well, nagMcDo na kame. desserts lang naman.

sa pagdating ni anne at ni anna may (yung friend ni anne) nag-kantahan na sa videoke, pero sila lang. alam nio naman ako, nang-aasar lang ako at nakikipagkulitan.. kakatuwa lang si anna may, feeling ko kase ma-oop sya, tapos everytime na nagkakatinginan kame paulit-ulit syang nag-wwave ng kamay tapos sabay sasabihing "Hi". ako naman, "okay? anung meron?" pero sa isip ko lang, pero yung mata ko nanlalaki tapos titingin bigla sa kaliwa't kanan. nagsumbong nga sya kay anne, kung makatingin daw ako. tapos si anne naman pinagttripan ko. nagstay na lang din ako sa llob ng videoke room habang nag-hihintay ng kakantahin.

pagkatapos nun, may nadiskubre kameng game na parang sira kase di maubos yung credits, so laro lang kame ng laro. maya-maya iniwan na namen, nakakaapgod daw at nakakasawa.nagpunta na kame ni McLean sa Greenwich at sila Ehloi sa Savemore. Pizza at coke lang ang dinner. sobrang tawanan at kwentuhan lang. tapos yung kaibigan ni anne parang si Angel. parang sya kase sya. nakakatuwa lang at heto pa. nahampas pa ko kase tinawag ko syang Angel. kala ko nga galit nung tumingin e. katakot. pero masaya. naglakad kame hanggang terminal, gabi na nun. hinihintay na nga namen magsara yung mall bago kame umalis e.

nung nagbbye na kame sa isa't isa. nakusap ko si ehloi. tawanan nung simula tapos may naopen sya, sbe nia kung nakwento na nia ba saken? sabe ko alen? "may tumor si ate sa utak." di naman pansin yung lungkot nia nung araw na yun pero hanga ako sa kanya. 


di naman kame close nung ate nia pero ramdam ko kung lungkot. sympathy kumbaga. napatigil ako at walang nasabe. nakakalungkot lang.
di ko man lang nai-share yung kayang gawin ni Lord. 

Live
Love
Forgive
Never Give Up

iBLoG

i Believe Love and Obey GOD.

Jabes is God's Original Masterpiece

Obernait agen.

April 13, Friday. Norfil Bldg.

Rolinda, Joy, Jasmin and I plus denise went to church to work together for designing the church for Daily Vacation Bible School (DVBS). I'm a volunteer in the said DVBS. working with my fellow KKBs. we draw, cut papers and put colors to the crafts we've made. galing lang nilang magdrawing.  o talagang di ako marunong magdrawing. XD

we're busily busy. and we need to go home early kase aalis si kuya eko. so we packed our things and cleaned the mess. si Jas at Joy kasama na nila yung damit at gamit nila. ready na ready para sa overnight kila Hazel. wala kase syang kasama dahil nag-EGR ang parents nia at si hacinth naman ay nasa work. nung nagpaalam ako, di ako pinayagan ni mama kaya di pa ko ready, sabi ko nlng kila jas na sunod nlng ako sa SM Tunasan sa kadahilanang nasa work pa sya at gagabihin daw ng uwi.

buti nlng pinayagan nila mama. well, actually.. di talaga, tumakas lang ako. pero di talaga ako tumakas.. slight lang. kase nandun naman sila nung umalis ako, di nga lang ako binigyan ng pamasahe. pagdating ko sa SM, nandun sila sa booksale nagtitingin ng Precious Heart Romance. haha! joks lang. sinalubong nila ako mula dun. after nun. we went up to Food Court, and planned to wait for Hazel until 8pm. 

as we sit over there. you know. we were starving. until we realized na may pera pala kame, galing kay teacher adel, may sukli kase dun sa pinang-bili namin ng props. at sabi din samen ni kuya eko nung nasa church pa kme, kasama na daw dun ung mirienda namen.

kaya tineks ni joy si teacher adel AT PINANGALAN SAKEN. grr. pero matagal tagal din namin hinintay yung reply hanggang sa we have DECIDED. silence means YES! :D

nagpunta kame sa likod. sa hypermarket, bumili ng pagkaen. pic-a ultimate cheddar snack mix and fit and right na may pineapple bits. sobrang tagal namen sa market. tawanan lang kame ng tawanan. and then I realized na ngayon lang kameng tatlo nakapagbonding. bumili rin kme nung parang TACO. nakalimutan ko tawag. at muntik-muntikan na namin naubos yung sukli na di naman na-approve-an.


at nagpunta na kmeng jolibee sa pacita at dun na hinintay si hazel. 9pm na din kme dun.  nagbasketball pa kame na ang bola ay tissue at ang ring ay bibig ng nakanganga. at bumili pa kame ng University Float. halo-halo na laman ng tyan namen.


ang saya lang. nakakatuwa lang si Joy habang pinapanood namin ni jas, kinikilig kilig sa 548 Heartbeats.


nung dumating na si hazel, nagpunta agad kame sa kanila. nagready. nag-usap. nanood. 

Final Destination 5, No Strings Attached at Insidious. nung pinanood pala namen ang insidious, dumating na si aries galing ortigas. may seminar kase ang drummers.
hindi na kame kumaen dahil nga naghalo-halo na yung mga kinaen namen. 


CONFESSION! Di kame pwede sa overnight. para sa girls lang daw yun and the elders don't want us to be there. they not saying exactly but for sure about LUST of the FLESH, alam nio na yun. kahit dko sabihin ung 3 letter word. they're afraid. they are worried. but yun ba talaga ang rason? anyway ayoko nang mag-isip ng kung anuman. kayo nalang kung gusto nio. haha! :D


habang pinanonood ang insidious, katabi kong nakahiga si Joy na gustong gusto ipasara yung pinto. tpos si jas, aries at hazel. si joy, nagbabasa lang sa wattpad, habang kameng 4 nanonood. naiinip ako, gusto ko agad sa climax. well, natapos ang movie. I'm expecting the twist. but i like the line: You're stronger then they are, Josh. You are a living soul.


and then, we slept. wait. we need to pray. personal nlng daw. so we whisper our prayers to God and we sleep. the next day, there are lots of things to do. Hazel was the one who woke up first then me. we don't have so much photos these days, so i only give you few.

Just woke up. Just Instagram. Just me

All asleep. 

the next thing that happen? we ate breakfast, took a bath, i think? XD
before we go home, hacinth came. miss ko na to, we talked a little and we went home.
pupunta pa kase akong Youth Center kase may meeting kame.


but.. pero.. may nagtext sakin. old friend. hindi matandang kaibigan ah. 
punta daw kameng school.  nanlibre si Ehloi.

Honesty? my first champ. and i dont like that tomato. XD

umalis ako mag3pm na, obviously late na ko darating. sobrang inet sa tren. nakatulog nga ako ng nakatayo e.. at nung pagbaba ko, iniisip ko baka tapos na. good thing they're just talking about our sec. joel. and then, MAJOR ANNOUNCEMENTS for YOUTH SUMMIT including the PLACE, TIME and THE SPEAKERS and GUESTS. well this youth summit is just CRAZY!

new exTreme Emblem soon!


after the encouragement and announcement, a worship explosion happen.
nanakit mata ko kakaiyak. sobrang burst out ang puso ko. dko alam kung ano gagawin ko. so, nagpunta ko sa harapan. actually marami kame. truly our heart broke down and the Spirit of the Lord is in the place. thank God for His presence.





Live
Love
Forgive
Never Give Up

iBLoG
i Believe Love and Obey GOD.
Jabes, God's Original Masterpiece

Englo Enhancement (Aug.24, 2011)

finally! all the pictures in our play is on the web!
that's our final grade, so we need to perform very well. :)

who will be on the hot seat?

so, i'm going to start with what happened last Aug.22.
if you would recall my 300th blog spectacular! there's a line in that post saying "i just came home from makati".
that's our practice and i didn't make it because it rained hard and i don't have any umbrella.


so i'm stuck at buendia bridge. (idk what's the name..)
wet and shivering.


to make the long story short, i didn't attend any of our practice. then the judgement day came, 
while the other groups gets weaker and weaker every minute because of anxiety , here we are:
BORED and RELAX in our classroom.

oh! its a talk show! 
we saw different performers and performance! we're the last to perform..
so we wait until the night came.. but before we stepped in to the stage, we saw our professor crying in disappointment.

Tragie on his album. the interview is much LOL

handmime :)

Baby Boy hotdog.xD

the audiences and the performers. :)

Tragie promoting his debut album

by popular demand, try  the new tuna hotdog. XD

the most funniest commercial in the history of Englo. hahaha

the richest man interview (that's me! haha!)

i thank God for the 100 score given by our professor.
and oh! the wedding, i almost forgot:

Engl03 - 1st trimester - 2011

si crush! haha! kay landi. tsk.




Live
Love
Forgive
Never Give up

I am God's Original Masterpiece
I am God's workmanship

iBLoG
i Believe, Love and Obey God.
Jabes belongs to Jesus. :)