Remember December

This has to be the best month of the year. Well, not because of non-stop events and food. It's because it's our wedding month. 

#theBESforJAS - This is our hashtag. It was predestined ever since #TheWanForAnne trended. Jasmin and I got married last December 1 at Leanel's Garden in Tagaytay. It was one of the best feelings in the world and we are just thankful that we celebrated it with our loved ones. 

After the wedding, we stayed in Tagaytay to spend the night. Our friends were also in the neighborhood that's why the party continues up to the next day and here we are, enjoying each other's company. 

We also meet up with Lors, we were overwhelmed by her generosity and love, and support towards us. As a simple gift of appreciation (Let's set aside that I'm really craving for some grilled meat). We invited her over Samgyup. 

This month is getting crazier. For how many years, I had a chance to finally meet her group of friends in college. I've only heard of them through her stories. Now, they became alive. I had so much fun meeting them and they are some good and cool people. 

I'm staying at the Casauay's in the meantime. Our newly bought house is being renovated before we set our foot in this new home. In the first few days, Jasmin and I stayed there and spend the night, I even worked at the time. A picture of my setup is uploaded below:

This is Jasmin, we went back to Tagaytay to submit the requirements for our marriage license. We stopped by for some street food. We missed eating kwek-kwek. This has been our first getaway as a married couple. Yes, back in Tagaytay with some boiled egg. 

As a preparation for our new home and the upcoming party with our friends. We bought some home items like Stove but most of all, my favorite purchase is Bean Bags. I've been longing for how many years, it stated at TaskUs about 6 years ago and here we are. Dreams do come true. 

Also, we had our extended wedding celebration in Batangas. My mom has a really big family and we are not able to invite most of them. So, this plan has been settled. They set up some curtains and balloons. I melted by their love towards us. I'm forever grateful for their lives. I mean, just look at these pictures, we danced with them, eat some crazy food and have fun in general. 

The next day, we went eating a lomi somewhere in Batangas and had quick swimming. This is probably the first time since the Pandemic. 

Christmas will never be the same again. Aquino and Casauay family joined together to celebrate Christmas together. We tell our bible verses and exchange gifts. It was fun and really productive. 

Later that day, we met one of our favorite ninangs, Ate Kat. She surprised us on Christmas day while we look like trash for cleaning the house. It's always fun to have her around. For those who did not know, if anyone reads this. Ate Kat is the one who taught me to be part of the Projectionist team back in our old church. I've also worked with her during the preparation for Jasmin's 18th birthday. Look at us. Hahahha!

The next day, we signed up for the on-site Sunday Service. This is the first time in almost 2 years. It's great to be back and this is so much better than online service. It felt different, way different. We are so blessed to attend during the last service of the year.

We have new members. Our tropahan added new members. Cathy and Daryl. Cathy just received that Caution board and what a day to be alive. This is one of the most fun from our yearly party. Look at Joy's face, I'm proud to say that that's my gift. 

Other notable highlights:

- Watched Shang-Chi: The Legends of Ten Rings

- Bought Stove, canvass for other home items

- We also visited my parents at home in Bayanan to pick up some personal stuff and had a really quick catch-up with my family. 

- At the end of the month, I got attacked by Gout. Miraculously, some herbal and sprays it went out not lasting for more 2 days. 

//RememberDecember

Hold My Hand

Sitting in front of you, with songs that surrounds 

On the ears of every that's excited 

An approached and a tiny box-shaped device 

Explored the files, trying to find out the meaning  

Watching it on the screen, I tried to find you. 

But I can't, along with the cut scenes

I saw your smile. Wearing yellow and then transformed into pink. 

I'm enjoying the view until.. 

He came. An interruption.  

My heart beats fast out of nerve. 

I want to collapse as I saw his hand reaches yours for a handshake. 

Is it real?! Stayed up to the end. 

Waiting for something more. 

Bearing the stir of motion while trying to act normal. 

I know I'm not feeling well. 

He received something that I dreamed of. 

To share hands with her. 

I know I would cry. 

I know I don't worth it. 

And still I long for. 

//HoldMyHand
//Again
//SheLeft
//TheDuty
//IStillRemember
//ThatNight
//sebajisoka

16

Remember when you were 16, you're about to graduate high school and you have tons of classmates and friends. All you do is to have fun, play counter-strike, dota and other computer games. You're very well in Math and you apply it instantly.. You believe that Studying is the sum of Study and Dying. So you don't study at all.

Remember when you were 16, when you had a fight with your brother because he didn't wash the dishes and he went to sleep to escape from it and you had a fight with him the next day? And you almost one, as well as him but you both know that fighting over those things are plainly non-sense, so you both lose.

Remember when you were 16, where you don't feel any love at all. You thought that you're a huge failed experiment. That your parents hated you and they think you're dumb. Then all you do is to cry over those things and didn't do anything to fix it.

Remember when you were 16, where all those wrong things, all those negative emotion came to an end. It all breaks down. It vanished and your mind has been renewed. You are now a positive person and that's because Love has found you, after all of running in the dark and pointless aiming.

Remember when you were 16, where Jesus saved you from the pit of hell and He gave you an instant eternal life at that same point you accepted Him as Lord and Savior in your life?

In the 16 years of your existence, you never know anything about it. No one knows what will happen after 5 years from that. Now, I'm 21, exactly 5 years from that year. And that reminds me of a promise, a covenant and a prayer that you've been praying for the longest time possible. A promise of a 5 year connection, a covenant of protection and love and a prayer of going to infinity and beyond.

I'm not 16 anymore but being the 4th most important man, is really makes me in awe. It's really amazing. Really. Promises! 


//16
//sebajisoka

Again

Place so romantic
Music is slow
I have your hand
You're adorable

We're swaying in the beat
Into each other's eyes
Wanted to break the silence
But became speechless
For getting lost in the gaze

Can't believe I'm holding you now
Hands together, other on your waist and other on my shoulder
Hoping It could last forever

But I heard something
I needed to go
Yet I don't want to
Time is up
Didn't want to say goodbye

I'm glad to be a part
I always treasure this
It will be forever in my head

I hope that we can do it again
And again. With much more
Much more emotion
Much more feeling

//Again
//SheLeft
//TheDuty
//IStillRemember
//ThatNight
//sebajisoka

she left

I never thought any of this will happen

but I'm so glad, I know its real

That I'm not dreaming or under illusion

My hands on her waist

Hers on my shoulder

Everything is in slow motion as I look into her eyes

My peripheral vision saw petals falling down behind her

and I hear the beat of the song we're dancing to

Now, everything is in fast forward

Swaying in the beat of music

I can feel the shaking of my knees

sweat of my foreheads are starting to bubble

and she's smiling at me

How can I take this moment of silence with her

Her eyes to my eyes

After hours and hours of stare-while-dancing game

I smiled. She won. My heart

There's something beyond her eyes

the passion, the seduction, the innocence

but i really didn't expect what happened next

the thing i thought forever

has its ending

the song changed

everything's back to normal

no slowmotion, no fast forward

in normal form

and then, something's pulling me away from her

I saw how joy turned into confusion in her eyes

I'm reaching her hand

I know I'm screaming in my head

it's starting to be blurry

I can't deny that this split seconds means a lot to me

the moment that our hands has set apart is heartbreaking for me

but I don't want any of this be the end

'cause I know, there is much more than this

//SheLeft

//TheDuty
//IStillRemember
//ThatNight
//sebajisoka

The duty

I remember one time, a friend leaves me in exchange of having fun with other friends. Making things worst, we have a duty that time, the two of us. So it means, I'll work alone. since, we're on the same place, I can partly hear their laughs behind. I just pretend I'm busy. I envy them.

I'm mad but I didn't tell. All this emotion is inside me. well, not all but those negative emotions eats me up. and I tell you, It's not good for your health! My mind doubles up. Everything my friend does is not good in my own. I hated that friend of mine.

but you know what?
There's a change of view, those negative emotion became positive. The negative emotion that I told you? They eat up the same atoms inside me. the negatives and it leaves me purely positive. that friend that I hated? I'm not thankful to what that friend did.

you ask me why.
well, If he didn't choose our friends over me. I will never had a chance to appreciate what I'm doing. There's this part of me now that I don't want to let go of, because of that incident. I never ever forget that time. although it makes me sweaty and haggard. although the hassle came across my fingers. although I hated that job. 

It maybe a simple day in my perspective but nothing compares to that. I loved that job I used to hate. because of a one simple reason. I'm part of that glorious night.



//TheDuty
//IStillRemember
//ThatNight
//sebajisoka

I Still Remember

I'm about to turn my back from that glamorous night
sparks fly, butterflies in stomach
I am extremely happy, yes! I'm overwhelmed that I did my part
in this memorable moment
my heart's jumping up and down

where's my mask? I can't hide my smile.
help! no one should see me.
I found a remedy. It's time to go home.
I say 'good-byes' to everyone I know
now, outside the orbit of the celebration

Didn't know she's there, standing
I said my farewell to her
she said her farewell to me and everyone I'm with
but in split second, I have lots on my mind
I didn't understand it right away
but I don't want to leave without her personal words to me

in that same second
I knew I have to accept the fact that It will not happened
and then, I hear her voice calling my name
everything slows down
the fact that I know is now an assumption 
it is now a lie

I turned my head back to her
and I look directly into her eyes
she's smiling. 
waiting on her next words. I aflutter.

"..."

she said simple words. yet meaningful.
it came from her own voice
from her own thoughts. 

I turned around glad.
walking through the roads of darkness without a word 
but smiling.
I'm overwhelmed.


//ThatNight
//sebajisoka

That Night

I can still remember that night
it was full of emotions
its raining, I'm wet
my chest is on burst mode
as i wait for my turn to flip those roses

she doesn't have any idea
on what am I going to do
my knees were shaking
my hands were cold

I don't have friends to cheer me up
but I'm still glad 'cause I can freely look at your smile
without interruption, without second thoughts

I don't have the courage to speak
so I just let it go
I do not know
until..

I can still remember that night
so vivid, seems like yesterday
I can't think of anything as I stare
you're amazed through the happenings
I can see it through your eyes

and then you look at me
I should have drift left or right
but I don't have enough time to decide
I'm lost in the gaze
I'm stunned
the smile on my own face never leaves
and I flash bigger ones
I saw delight in your eyes

I can still remember that night
you're so gorgeous, beautiful and lovely
I can't deny it. I'd agree with it
now, I'm sure what am I looking for
I blow words from my mouth
I wonder if you got it right

the clock is ticking
my heart rhymes with it
and there's a melody on my head
thats fills up the scenery
its perfect
your perfect, too perfect for me.

I can still remember that night
I can still remember your posture
I can still remember your smile
I can still fell for those eyes
now, I can't.. I can't move on from that night

Live
Love
Forgive
Never Give Up

//sebajisoka