Wish I Never

I trusted you.
I planned my life all over you
My decisions were made with you on my mind

I'm not sure what I did and what I've missed
Did I forget something?
I don't know what's wrong 
But it does not feel the same
It doesn't feel right

There's something different in the way you act
I feel no love
The look in your eyes has changed

It hurts me, deeply
breathing became a challenge 
and I'm ready to be drowned under the blueness of this emotions

Who is to blame for all of this?
It's killing me to see you grooving in the sound of our song
with someone else
I saw happiness in your eyes that I never saw lately

Your eyes glow as you look him in the eyes
but I'm glad
I'm glad that you've found him
someone better, someone deserving
All hopes up for your happiness

But how about me?
I'm left alone in the dark
sobbing for help
wondering what went wrong and when it happened?

All I ask now is to please let me sleep tonight
without the tears from my eyes
without the pain in my heart
And for the last time 
May I hear you say goodnight again 

and I'll be fine
I'll be hopefully fine 

'Cause I know, I can move forward
I can rise up
But I'll be just staying right here, right now
and will be sleeping under this cloud of unknown


I'll soon unlearn loving you
It all makes sense to me 
I'm really unlovable, unbearable

Good bye for now
I know I'm not for you
and I wish

that I never met you..


//WishINever
//sebajisoka

Is it too late?

I know that I shouldn't said that
You don't deserve it
and it pains me 
knowing how disgusting it was 

You can disown me and I'll never blame you

But I'm sorry, I regret it.
I know this is not enough
but I'll make sure to make up
with all that I know
with everything that I can

I'm sorry to all the things that I've said and done
To the way I act whenever I'm tired
or whenever I ignore you 
and all the unrecognized efforts

All I'm thinking was.. myself

I'm begging you, I wanted to change
And that's what I'll pursue 
It will be my peace offering
I will adopt your kind heart
And your calmness

I hope that you can look me in the eyes again with the words that you're longing to say and I'm waiting to hear..

//NotToLate
//sebajisoka

It's all about me

May nakilala ka na bang tao na mahilig magkwento tungkol sa sarili niya?
'yung pagmay kinukwento ka about something tapos sisingit nila yung sort of same thing ng kinukwento mo pero may different twist?

Ano daw?

Sample! 

I was sitting there, peacefully, ready for my turn on the topic "Ano yung limiting belief mo?", so there, I was sharing my story and that life changing event about being free from religion and this friend from afar whose turn was 3 seats ago spoke and told us a story about how she has 2 religions and found similarities between the 2 and decided to go her own way. 

Apparently, nakikinig lahat sa kanya and agreed on her point of view, so ayun na nga po. Di pa po kasi ako tapos magkwento po and di ko pa po na-eelaborate yung side ko po and parang di niyo pa po naririnig yung climax ng story ko po. Then ayun, they make me agree on what that person said kasi nga I was telling a story about being free from religion, just like her story. 

Just like her story..

W-w-w-wait.

Ako nag-introduce ng topic about being free from religion, bakit sa kanya nakabase yung sarili kong story. Bakit ganun. Parang may mali, so I'm about to continue my story, somehow then.

TIME!

I'm not sure if you have that one friend na you know, laging dapat may entry and low-key star of the night, *disclaimer: wala po kong galit kahit kanino, kung may magalit man, bahala kayo. Hahaha* yung puro sarili lang ang ambag. It's all about me, you know, I don't care about you and what you eat and what you're doing, basta eto ako, eto kinakain ko at eto ginagawa ko. 

Maybe, we're all like that. We're low-key acting like a selfish blob trying to consume everything because life is all about us. We act like everything revolves around us and that our opinion must be heard and our story is worth sharing.

Yup, that's us. 

Picture-an mo ko dito pero ako yung blurred, kasi it's not about me. It's about Taiwan. 

//Selfish
//sebajisoka

Taiwan Travel

We went to Taiwan! And below is the list of my takes about our recent travel in Taiwan.

Food is all over the place and one of the things that tourists want to try and experience in Taiwan is their food. There are several night markets in Taiwan and we were glad to have one under our accommodation. Maybe the most famous food there is the Stinky Tofu, well, because it's stinky and intriguing. We tried several food but we're fed up with the smell of anything.

Parks here and there. Too many parks to choose from and anyone can easily access, aside from being near their main transportation, most of the parks has no entrance fee, you can access their temples and museums and even the famous Taipei 101.

Discipline and cleanliness. Most of the places that we've been through, if not all, were clean. It's almost impossible to see any trash. People are disciplined, anywhere you look, you won't see anyone trying to have politics over something, whether in lines, trains or in restaurants.

Kuya Leo, our tour guide, is one of the best tour guides I've ever met. His cab has music, wifi, an extra Tablet for music streaming of your choice. Wait, he also has a microphone so we can sing along the music. There's free water, candies and a fan if it gets hot.

But the most striking thing about Kuya Leo, his beliefs, his not afraid to tell you about it and encourage you about his Christian faith. I remember prior going to a temple, he told us to not to pray or make a wish. It's okay to take pictures and all but there's only one true God.

Taiwan is a small country, you can fit about 8 Taiwans in the Philippines base on mylifeelsewhere.com, but their culture is pure, their transportation is way advanced than the Philippines and they respect anyone.

//TaiwanTravel
//sebajisoka

Big Pot

Have you ever felt the struggle?
The pain of those teases
The agony of not living up to their expectations

It is real.

I tried to be better, to be the best.
I'm still on a scuffle.
I. Just. Can't. Help. Myself.
You can lay down the things that I should be doing
And I will still fail

I don't know what to do
And I'm tired
I just want to lay down all day and all night
Wishing that everything will become better

Tears does not fall anymore
Just the pale face and fake smiles
I'll just pretend that there's nothing wrong
You know what they say,
Fake it till you make it

You may hate me now
but what can I do?
If will power doesn't work for me
And all the excuses is at present

Maybe I don't belong here
Maybe..

//BigPot
//sebajisoka