What happened?

Do you ever asked yourself about what just happened?
I mean, earthquake in Visayas, the pork barrel scam, Mindanao war. 
it's all over. What's happening?

As you see. No one really know what's happening. Christian claims judgement for the nation or the end is near. but I think, instead of fighting and arguing about what's happening. why don't we just pray and act. 

Oh! Look who's talking?! 

Honestly, I don't have a participation in those things. I admit and I say this sadly that I didn't even pray for it. I didn't pray for my country often.
but please don't put the blame on me. I didn't do anything, I didn't plant something underneath bohol that make the place shake or a conspirator of Napoles and I didn't even whisper anything to Nur Misuari.

maybe that's the reason. we didn't do anything. we're doing nothing. God didn't create us to just pop out of nowhere and be added to the population of the world.
It takes a nation to bless a nation. we have a participation.
so if you're asking me what happened?

we're mislead.
we're misfocused.
we lack in prayer.

//WhatHappened
//Prayer
//sebajisoka

I Invented A Game

I invented a game. and I named it by my nickname that only few people knew about.
the game has its crazy idea and a weird concept.
it should be played by 2 persons. 2 close persons. 
its a battle against each other.
sword on one side and a crown on the other.

it's so crazy that I don't even understand. I said it's on going but it seems not. 
It's game over but many things were not explained and has no clear ending.
I don't even know how to explain it.

It started at September 1st and it should be end by the 20th or 21st or 22nd of the said month. and know what? I failed. but I tried adjusting things for the sake of mystery. maybe? the game has lots of surprises. It surprises me also. weird huh.

as I said. I failed at compressing it within 20 days. So it goes on. up to 24th of October. 20 days to 2 months?  It should be done by that day. 24th. but I sense the cancellation of the date, I'm thinking of rescheduling. and with some gloominess I finally end it. I don't see the sense of playing it up to the next month. I made everything complicated. HAHAHA!

I don't even know if the person that is involve is still interested. or maybe irritated.
HAHA! 

The ending of the game is quite dramatic. You'll never know what's in it.
This just brings curiosity. I better end this.

Yey Them. :D

//IInventedAGame
//Heyaah!
//sebajisoka

Where the love lasts forever

Last sunday with the KKBs. We talked about favorite worship songs. They stated their favorite songs, they even sing it in front of us. Well, I can give you a long list of my favorite songs. but I'll give you one. just one.

Where the love lasts forever
this song speaks to me the loudest. it speaks about God's mercy that He capture us in our brokenness and unlikeliness. He even give us gift of life, which we don't deserve. Sometimes it's hard for me to grasp anything about grace. why me? why have mercy on me? a sinful and undeserving man living in the world. but that's the concept of grace. undeserved. unmerited. beyond of thoughts. and even beyond logic. Tell me what's amazing about grace?! It makes me cry. It makes me feel loved. It's crazy. wait no. it's craaaaaaaaaaazzzzzy. really. and I love how the chorus of the song ends. Something that I desire. That I loved to do. that when all else fades, my soul will dance with You, where the love lasts forever.


//WhereTheLoveLastsForever
//sebajisoka

middle brainer

Is this considered as self-seeking? I take up personality test on the web and discover something from me, within me. you know. some stuffs. Here's what I got. :D


You are a middle brain dominant student!


You are open minded but not gullible about things or people. You may run into trouble making decisions sometimes, while your logical brain plays tug-of-war with your gut instinct. You enjoy the arts, but you could also do well in science and math. You appreciate the beauty of all things in life, and are well-rounded. Middle brain students would do well on The Apprentice, since they can have a strong mix of gut instinct and an appreciation for numbers. You would have a strong career in business, but you may not go that route; you may be more interested in studying the arts and sciences in college. You would be wise to read over the characteristics of left and right brain students and consider whether you fall into the traps of either type. For instance, extreme right brain dominant students can get too bogged down in thought, while extreme left brain students can be rigid in their views.



//MiddleBrainer//sebajisoka

she left

I never thought any of this will happen

but I'm so glad, I know its real

That I'm not dreaming or under illusion

My hands on her waist

Hers on my shoulder

Everything is in slow motion as I look into her eyes

My peripheral vision saw petals falling down behind her

and I hear the beat of the song we're dancing to

Now, everything is in fast forward

Swaying in the beat of music

I can feel the shaking of my knees

sweat of my foreheads are starting to bubble

and she's smiling at me

How can I take this moment of silence with her

Her eyes to my eyes

After hours and hours of stare-while-dancing game

I smiled. She won. My heart

There's something beyond her eyes

the passion, the seduction, the innocence

but i really didn't expect what happened next

the thing i thought forever

has its ending

the song changed

everything's back to normal

no slowmotion, no fast forward

in normal form

and then, something's pulling me away from her

I saw how joy turned into confusion in her eyes

I'm reaching her hand

I know I'm screaming in my head

it's starting to be blurry

I can't deny that this split seconds means a lot to me

the moment that our hands has set apart is heartbreaking for me

but I don't want any of this be the end

'cause I know, there is much more than this

//SheLeft

//TheDuty
//IStillRemember
//ThatNight
//sebajisoka

To my 40 year old friend

Hey! Wazzup?! How is it going out there? are you having fun? are you on an adventure? are you out of town? or maybe out of the country? are you married? Do you have a child? are you working? Self-employed? a businessman? are you living your dream? a writer? a speaker? a leader? 

I have tons of questions for you, obviously. and obviously, you'll never answer that. 'cause I'm crazy. but can I share things with you? can I? well, today, October of 2013. I'm disappointed in some things but I see new things behind it all. maybe, God is behind it all. that He is in all of this. as I ponder this moment. All I have to do is to trust. Him. He gave me clues. I'm expecting for groovy things ahead. so i should really trust Him, 'cause if I trust myself. there's a huge chance of failure. 

the next thing I want to share is that life is not hard. It's easy as it is now. but I'm making everything complicated. It is I who make things worst. I don't even know what to do. or even where to go. but I hope you're on the right destination. to the right path. You see, God is doing great things everywhere. people received eye-sights, healing and restoration. I bet you already claim your own. and never forget His promises.

Always remember what are you made of. You are a warrior of God for He made you to be one. with a braveheart that had been enhanced, fortified and strengthened by God's Word. Adventures are inside your heart. Don't forget to take a walk in the wilderness with your passionate heart. face your problems with bravery. never run out of it. be the man.

Oh. You may be the King of your Queen now. but never forget that once in your life you were Prince and Princess; and perpetually, You are the one with the sword. Fight for her no matter what. Protect her with your all. Pursue her. Bring her with your adventures. Go against those who against her. Never hurt her. Make her feel special, always. Send her flowers and gifts. Understand her. Dance with her. Compliment her. Be faithful to her. Love her, passionately. 

I'm disappointed with me now, but I hope you can forgive your 20-year old friend. How old are you? 40? Gosh your old. you're like my dad. Really old but still good-looking. And I call that a comeback. I don't know what to say more. Did I say a lot? maybe I'll write you again some other time. I'm excited for you to read this. Arrg! Goodnight!

~ sebajisoka

//40yearoldself
//sebajisoka

Forgiveness

What do you know about forgiveness? Are you a great apologizer to someone. how often you say sorry and act like you really mean it? I'm reading this book by Gary Chapman, the author of 5 Love Language Series and Jennifer Thomas. It is called 5 Language of Apology. I haven't finished the book yet but I'm learning things. A lot of it. 

when sorry isn't enough, what else can you do?
some flowers, chocolates, repentance, doing something good? The book focuses on couples so, I can't apply many things in my situation but there's the idea. we are all sinful creatures, we're not perfect. so we needed to apologize. not for the sake of saying sorry or just to end the conversation but to admit that you are wrong. that we were. Its an acknowledgement of our imperfection. And there's this great feeling when you forgive and know that you are forgiven. I'll be posting another blog about this when I finished the book.

To all I've offended. Sorry! I'll make things up to you. I wanna make things right. 
Good day!


//5LanguageOfApology
//Forgiveness
//sebajisoka