I Gave Blood v.2

Last Saturday, I donate another bag of my blood, the last time I donated my blood is last October 2012. It's for Cyrus, MJ and Camille's nephew/niece. 

But this time, I donated my blood to Sis. Arlene Balajadia, Wife of Bro. Rudy and mother of our fellow KKBs before, Kuya RD, Ate Roda and Rolinda. And they need prayers for their Mom. I'm with kuya Eko when I donated my blood because, Camille and Karl doesn't have any ID to start with. A valid ID is required for donating blood in OsMun.

So, I lay there in the bed and I let a portion of my blood flows through. Since it's my second time, I'm not afraid to look at those needle, I just kinda want to feel the pain. I don't know. Well, It feels good to somehow, as pastora said, 'Extend' someone's life. You know that you have a part. Though I don't have tons of money to offer but still with my blood. I can help.

After the blood donation, we ate lunch at Festival Mall. And we also meet Karl and Camille (where they have a challenge to evangelize) and later we're together with Pastora and sis. elvie. We ate at Odd balls. I was blessed through the life of Camille as she's successfully shared the gospel to a woman and had a prayer of acceptance.

Before we leave, I had a time with Karl, Camille and Kuya Eko at Riverpark and we stopped by at DQ before going home.

Before we end the day, I had this conversation with Camille. She shared about a secret, a one sensitive secret. 


Goodnight!

//IGaveBloodv2
//sebajisoka

Sayang

Lahat tayo nakaranas na. Ang panghihinayang. Sayang. Hindi na maibabalik, hindi na mababago. May mga bagay talaga na akala natin noon eh okay lang at may time pa pero, ang hindi natin alam. Balaligtaran pala. Hindi na okay, wala ng time. Huli na ng subukan, sayang.

Ngayon, may pinanghihinayangan ako. Sayang.
Nasisisi ako, napapagalitan. Sayang.
May oras na nawala, panahong walang produkto. Sayang.

Wala na. Guilty na ko. May magagawa pa ba ako?
Sayang no?! Panahon, Oras, Pera, Lakas. Sayang.

//Sayang
//sebajisoka

The Hard Fall presents: Epic

A glorious scene that encapsulates the waiting
for just a thought, it makes me weep
Tears that runs through the cheeks
You know, it will never expire

The affection that you utter
And the warmth of your love
Oh, what a sensation it is
And no one take this away

An introduction, and the afterword
The chapters in between
Even statement that can't relate
Every story that cannot be expressed

In one thing we share
In the simplicity of endearments
and the collide of the sentiments
Full of mystery and delight

Just like the song in our hearts
It's wonderful, it's remarkable
Just like the stars in the sky
It's astounding, It's elegant 

And the fire that covers our eyes
will flow with the passion in our hearts
and there will come a day
where the accuracy and the phase clash

As the sun will shine or the moon will rise
In the end of the interval 
And the start of the developed intimacy
The climax of the story 
And the culmination of waiting

My words ran out and the feeling stays in
Just like today, tonight..
All I know, that when we're in the point of it all
It would be..

Epic.

//TheHardFall
//Epic
//sebajisoka

I'm a dancer

One day, I was with new friends, I slowly learning and knowing something about them by listening. Their passions and their backgrounds. I remember him, he's a nurse and a dancer in their province. I want to interrupt and express our relation. I'm a dancer too, one of the dancer, back then, in our church. Then, I realized that I'm not. I'm a worshipper and when it come to dancing. I'm not good. I don't have the groove. So, I keep the what I thought a 'relation' to myself.

It saddens me whenever I remember that. Why?! I wanted to tell them that I dance in church. And when the time came they see me dance and they might categorize it as awful. I can tell them, the reason..

The church seeks for dancers, in the congregation, in the community, they found many but not willing but they found worshippers. 


Ain't dancing for nothing.

//ImADancer
//sebajisoka

Sense of worth

There's this point again in time where I'm senseless. Worthless. My value was gone, once more. Because, for some, money gives you worth. If you earn more, it means you are more valueable. 

I remember when I was hated. I was a shame. I was pathetic.
Then, I start earning money. 
I am loved. I'm admirable. I'm a king.

There's something wrong. There must be something wrong. There's no support nor help or I just don't understand the situation. I heard them talking, it cuts so deep. It weakens me. They make me feel like I'm a failure or maybe I'm a failure after all. 

Maybe It's time to stop working on things because it's gonna fail.
Maybe it's time to stop dreaming because it's gonna fail.
Maybe it's time to wake up and accept the fact that I'm a failure.

Maybe it's time to say  goodbye.



Me: Not gonna happen.


//SenseOfWorth
//sebajisoka

Competition

I tried beating him, making myself much more memorable than him.

To be better. Yes. I'm competing.

Then, I realized that there's no need to.

It's not about who has a bigger Stuff Toy,

It's about the thought and the consistency of the feeling.

It's not about who fade away,
It's about who stayed.

It's not about who wait and let go,

It's about who stay and wait. 
It's not about who loved,

It's about who's flaming and who's not giving up.

Well, I'm proud. 

It's being pulled up together from a unidentified brokenness.

And it will be worth the wait. I knew it.

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//Competition

//sebajisoka

Bituin

Ang sarap talaga tumambay dito, kitang kita mo 'yung kalawakan, 'yung buwan at ang mga bituin, may bonus pa sa napakagandang view, walang ingay ng mga sasakyan at sabay-sabay na ingay ng mga tao ang maririnig. Puro hangin at paghinga mo lang talaga. Puwera nalang kung may makakasama ka.

Ang daming pumapasok sa isip ko pag nandito ako, sobrang nakakarelax kasi. Parang isang 'break' sa busy nating buhay. Ang dami kong tanong sa mundo. Gusto ko ngang pumunta sa future, baka sakaling may alam na silang sagot sa mga tanong ko ngayon. 

Palusot pa ko, eh ang gusto ko lang naman gawin sa future eh, alamin 'yung buhay ko. Kung anong trabaho ko, san ako nakatira at sino ang naging asawa ko. HAHA! Oo, 'yun ang gusto kong gawin.

Anu ba yan, kung ano-ano, naiisip ko. Alas-otso na pala. Sakto, sabi kasi sa balita may meteor shower daw ngayon. Maabangan nga't makapagwish ng madami. 

Star, my star. Why are you so beautiful?
If I'll spend more time waiting for you
it wouldn't bother me, 'cause I know
I know that you're worth the wait

It may 'cause some pain, but waiting is a virtue and pain is gain
Just watching you satisfy me, you captured this eyes
and it won't look away, you have me now,
'cayse you are my star, a star made specially for me.

Photo Credit: Hacinth.

//BituinGarden
//sebajisoka