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Today is my birthday and the struggle is real. Di kasi kami pinayagan nung una kaming nagpaalam, umabot nga sa pangalawa at ilang beses pa. Pero sa huli. Kami ang nagwagi! Ika nga niya "You and me against the world"

First stop: Jesus Is Lord Church - Norfil | 7am.

I arrived late at church, good thing it started late as well. They're praying for the service and there's a special mention after the prayer. Then the service starts..

Bro. Orly preached about avoiding spiritual decline, which I really need. And yeah, I don't usually remember sermon titles after the preaching but this hooked me up so bad that it's so good. Less than an hour preaching and the program goes on. They  prayed for me and the celebrants and first timers.

Then, a chance to talk to the KKBs for a while and later, I talked to Pastora for Jassiee. Pumayag sila! Oyeah! <3 We immediately went downstairs and ate at McDonald's for breakfast with Jasmin and Israel. Then, we went to Pacita then Sta. Rosa to Enchanted Kingdom.

Madaming bus.

Maraming tao.

Enchanted Kingdom

Pumila kame sa Group Sales and nakakuha ako ng libreng ticket, siya naman ay may discount na 10%. May bracelet din akong pink na lahat ng crew bumabati sa'kin ng "happy birthday".

Pagpasok namin ng Enchanted Kingdom, Naupo kame sa isang tabi at nagpicture. Sa wakaaas! Natupad din ang EK! Hahaha. Nagsimula na din kaming magvlog habang naglalakad lakad at naghahanap ng masasakyan.

Nagsimula kami sa Up, Up and Away, parachute type na ride, medyo mahaba-haba 'yung pila at mas mahaba pa talaga 'yung paghihintay. Ganun naman talaga eh, maganda din 'yung naghihintay. Nakakaexcite.

Ganun din naman 'yung kaganapan nung pumila kami sa Jungle Log Jam. Sobrang haba ng pila pero worth it. Masaya. Adrenaline! Natatawa ako sa kanya kase kitang kita sa itsura niya 'yung pagkakaba niya. Hahaha. Ang ending, nabasa kame. As in basa. Wala pa naman siyang dalang damit.

Dumeretso kami sa Flying Fiesta para dun magpatuyo. Parehong eksena, tuyo na nga kami nung turn na namen at shempre, dun kami sa pang dalawahan. Wala eh. Couple eh. XD

Umorder na kaagad kame matapos namin sa nakakastress na flying fiesta. Di kame nakapagvlog at ang gulo kasi ng pila. Kumaen kame ng parang rice in a box at naupo dun sa malayo. Tapos pizza kaagad. Tig-dalawa kame.

Wheel of Fate

Our last ride for today and waiting, as usual, was the longest time spent. We don't usually take over the conversation when it comes to falling in line because we all know that the ride is what we aim. We savor the moment. Right?

Well, while on the line, finger-crossed and faith were in boosted because as we walk closer and closer, we find hope, that somehow, we find ourselves in cube 17. And we were live. Prayer has been answered. Thank God! It magnifies our "meant-to-be-ness".

We enjoyed the view and play around with the fear of heights or should I say fear of falling. We also vlog up there.

Then, we've gone ahead and went to church as promised. They still have practice. Di kami magkatabi sa Jeep, it gave me time to watch her sleep and be alone for a moment. All I think about is how blessed I am to have her as my bestfriend, girlfriend. No more words. I just want to embrace her, and sure, she's the one that I long to spend my life with.

When we arrived at church. I never watched their practice, I saw it in glance but not in full. Seeing her dance with someone else is eye-popping and nerve-wrecking. So, I stayed upstairs and talk with people ranged from 3 to infinity. Ahem, friendly. Haha.

Kuya Joel told me that I should not accept greetings anymore and that starting next year, will only accept gifts. Hahaha. Also, his daughter never stopped at teasing me and Jasmin. As well as the other elders in the church.

When dinner came, I told them to go upstairs while I stayed downstairs. I had this incredibly interesting chats with Charlie, Hacinth and Hazel. Namiss ko 'yung ganito. Pero nakakastress 'yung pinag-uusapan. -.-

The 'dry-run' went on and it's already late. Our supposed to be group dinner date were getting late.

It's a struggle. Not sure if lacking in prayer but surely, the enemy is trying to defeat us where in fact, he's the one who lose.

After waiting and waiting, the celebration continues. We decided to have dinner at Yellow Cab and as far as I remember this is the first time that I celebrate my birthday where pizza is on the table. It's a fun-short-last-minute-birthday-dinner. And I thank God for my friends!

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Sa bawat pila, maraming napagusapan. Nakapaglaro pa nga ng asphalt at crossy road.

Nagtawanan at asaran. Inenjoy ang bawat segundo ng bawat pagkakataon.

Itong ganitong mga panahon ang palagi kong ipagpapasalamat. Masasayang sandali, may mapagusapan man o wala. Basta't magakasama. Walang humpay na ligaya.

Salamat. Maraming salamat Jasmin.

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Lord, wala naman kasi akong ibang masabe eh, pambihirang pag-ibig, hindi ako tinantanan, hindi ako iniwanan. Salamat po sa isa pang taon na ibinigay Mo. Kaya pala tinawag kang Rock of my salvation kase You Rock! Salamat po sa plano Mo sa buhay ko. Medyo nalilito pa ko sa gusto Mong ipagawa sa'kin pero sabe nga nila, tiwala lang.

Tiwala, eto 'yung gamit-gamit ko sa araw-araw, sa bawat panalangin, Ikaw ang pinagkakatiwalaan, lalo na sa buhay ng mga taong malapit sa'kin.

Pero sa totoo lang, palagi kong naririnig na.. "Hindi sapat ang buhay ko upang pasalamatan ka sa lahat ng ginawa Mo sa'kin." Pero wala eh, iba ka. Kaya ayan din ang awit ko. Kulang ang lahat ng 'to kung Sa'yo ibibigay.

It's amazing how God required everything in us from the Old Testament and yet He's the One who gave us everything

//sebajisoka

Fears

I don't my life to be controlled by fears, but there are times where our minds gets disturbed by different kinds of fears and later will be turned into phobia. 

I have fears, lots of it, and I may look strong on the outside but no. To be honest, you are one of my greatest fears. I'm afraid that one day, your excitement towards me be lost forever and the love will be just a memory.  

I'm afraid that you'll notice my undesirable imperfection. That I'm not the guy that you'd ever dreamed of. And I'm not the one for you.. And you'll discover all my bad habits and bad attitude. and I'll be losing you. Or one day, I'll become a monster that you'll be afraid to.

I don't know how to overcome this fear, or if I'll want to overcome this fear. I fell in love with you so bad that it's so good to love you so, and it makes me worried about what will happen in the near future.

I don't want my life to be controlled by fears but, Perfect love cast out all fears. So, let's make this love perfect.

So, let's hold on to God in everything that we're facing. 

//Fears

//sebajisoka

17th

Though one may be overpowered by another, two can withstand him.

And a threefold cord is not quickly broken. 

Ecclesiastes 4:12

Heyaah!

I have an announcement to make. That is. I officially have a girlfriend. I still feel weird just saying that. But yeah. After all these time. I had my last girlfriend.

It happened last October 17 during our date. We went to SM Megamall to visit some shops like Microsoft Store among others and do some shopping for shoes and SD Card. We also had our dinner at greenwich. Because pizza, yeah.

After the feet-breaking shopping with a girl. (Hi guys. Now I know how it really feels. >.<) But yeah. I enjoyed every bit of it. After this pretty long day. I requested an Uber on our way home. 

Though I already teased her about "The Day" earlier. She constantly gave me hints of what will happen today. She's didn't call me "Jabes" instead, she used the name that she wants to call her boyfriend. I ignore it for a while, thinking of other things because. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO FEEL AND HOW TO REACT.

Then our Uber came. Inside, we talked about many other things. Then she gave me a riddle. A riddle that will change our relationship status. It's blurry, I didn't get the logic, so I asked her.. If there's anything that she wants to say?

It was magical. I still can't believe that I already have a girlfriend. I'm humbled and I'm so grateful. And I thank God for everything, I know "everything" speaks generally but what can I say, the list of God's blessing towards us is countless. But above all. I thank God that I met you Jasmin, that of all the people God allowed all these things to happen and I pray that God will be the center of this epic relationship and that we will honor Him with what we have.

The verse above basically says that being alone can bring us defeat, you and me can overcome some battles but if we have Jesus.. Who can stop us?

This is going to be exciting. 

//17
//sebajisoka

I preached on Sunday Service

 Hi,

I've been so much blessed this month, aside from having a job, I also had this special moment on a stage where I was assigned to share the Word of God. 

Just a little bit of context, I already preached in small groups, from prayer gatherings, youth gatherings and other gatherings. It's nerve-breaking and breath-taking. But lately, I've been assigned almost weekly, our pastor somehow trains me to be confident standing in front of large crowd.

Then, she assigned me on a Sunday Service where there are more than hundred of people that will listen to me. I felt like I don't have a choice, so I prepared myself. I prayed and asked God for revelation and confident.

A week before my moment, my documents, the outline and powerpoint is not yet complete. But, I prepared the teaching on the bus, while on my way to my office. I'm listening to worship songs and swiping through the letters on OneNote in my Lumia 640 XL. The app is simply a blessing for people like me.

So, the day came. I'm not worried or something. That's how I handle things like this, you know. I'm more worried about going to the CR than speaking with people. HAHA! Thank God for the confidence. Then, they prayed for me. My hands together and they speak blessings over me. Afterwards..

I start preaching.

I can't even believe that I preached. It felt like it's not me. It was Him. For I know that everything He is doing in my life is not about myself, it will always point back to Him. The anointing, the blessing and the testimony. It will all reflect on Him.

I shared about this blind man and Jesus on Luke 18:35-43 with the title "An Experience with Jesus."

To be honest, I feel weird while I go down the stairs. I don't know if I did well or if I honored God with what I shared, but the response of the people around me was unbelievable and again, their compliments just reflect on who God is. Not me. 


Best,

//sebajisoka

A Year Ago

I still remember that day. No doubt, it was one of the most thrilling moment of my life.

I'm glad that I did it.
Life changing
And amazing

I'm not reaching the goal yet
But I'm grateful as I see the end of it all.

I can't put everything into words yet, I'll let everything fall into the perfect moment.
And I'll write it all down. 

The story of us. <3

//AYearAgo
//sebajisoka

Kudos for Sir Jay

I still remember my highschool days. You're my favorite teacher under my favorite subject. You have taught me many things that I still treasure up to this moment.  

Naalala ko pa nung nagHighest ako sa isang exam. Di ko alam na kaya ko pala yun. Wala eh, iba ka magturo, nakakaenjoy yung subject mo. Tapos naging kaBuilding ka namin sa Norfil nung lumipat yung church nyo dun. Walang pagbabago. Masiyahin na kwela na sobrang baet.  

Namimiss ka namen Sir Jay. Ang lungkot lang kasi eh. Favorite Teacher tapos Youth Pastor tapos ang hard ng pagpapaalam mo. Nakakagulat. Nakakalungkot. Halo-halong emosyon. Bakit kung sino pa ang mabuti?! Kung sino pa yung gumagawa ng mabuti siya pa yung nagagawan ng masama.  

The Lord gives and takes away. Blessed be His name. 

What I know now is you have heard Him say "Well done.. My good and faithful servant." And you're enjoying what God has prepared for you! Kudos for your life. Thank you for inspiring us and other students. For touching the lives of many. For being an example of a faithful servant.  

Sayang lang hindi mo na kasi mababasa 'to. Hayy. Pero apir tayo Kuya Jay! Hahuntingin kita sa heaven pagdating ng araw. :) 

Ciao.

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//SirJay
//sebajisoka

Stare

I was checking for a Lumia 640 XL LTE plan from Globe.com.ph in her laptop when I noticed that she's staring at me, on my cheeks, on my face. It gets a little uncomfortable, I'm not used to this. I pretend that I didn't see anything, so I keep scrolling and I end up in Smart.com.ph but I can't really put my attention on my research. I tried to tell a story but upon turning my eyes on her, I caught her. I caught her still staring, still doing her stare. 

Urggg. I don't now how to react but she caught me off-guard. Melted by those eyes. I think this is the first time that she stares at me, or at least 'caught her staring at me'. But I tell you, this is one of the best feeling in the world.

I'm speechless. Sorry..


//Stare
//sebajisoka