Loaded!

I was so disappointed. there's this one word which sounded not-so-good sent to me. it was for me, but what can i do for it? promises are so unfulfilled nowadays. and when i talk, who cares? i mean who cares about what I mean, or what am i going to say for them?


the walls have ears. i can feel it. when it comes to situation like that, you're the talk of the town. yeah. you're popular! they just don't feel any pain in any trash talk. they lived that way. but wait.. just to make things clear, I'm not judging them. they told me who they are. I stick to that. that's it. although, I'm not hindering any changes they might change in their journey in life. 


another thing is this weird thing about the situations around me. I see that there's a need. in relationships, way of life, dealing with feelings. but I hope that I'm not a hypocrite. in loving one another, its not appropriate to hate someone. if you see mistakes or things that annoys, you'd rather be on the gossip section rather than correct that thing or that person in a nice way. 


and this observation that keeps me feel uncomfortable with. this unfair relation, unfair manner, unfair situation and unfair treatment. i just cared. why on earth this thing happened? people become so stupid, so crazy being drowned with that situation. i feel dumb when that moment strikes out again.


pwew!
I'm so loaded with this squeezes.
I tried to talk to individuals, happenings wont allow me and them.
how i wish i could open this up to someone. bah dum tss but i know..

Live

Love

Forgive

Never Give Up

God's Original Masterpiece.

God's Workmanship.

iBLoG

i Believe Love and Obey GOD.

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I'm not into deleting old files and memories. even if its a bad memory or guilt or any negative energy created in my inmost part. I don't care if they are going to watch and read it again. and again. and again.


again? what's on my head again? another track of just another old song?
tease me all you want, mock me as you can. this is what i feel, what i believe in. what can change me by now?


now, now is the time to prove something for myself. with this new perspective. new responsibility. and newer me. with love and compassion.. I will not delete anything. where can i compare myself if there's "changes" in me. but my past.


the past. it keeps on bugging me. keeps pulling me down. but thanks to that Victorious Righteous Right Hand that holds me UP. no thought back can bother me again. 


in the finish line, when we stand up and get ready for the last and highest jump of our lives from earth to eternity, we may all see our timeline on this ground being changed from wicked to good, from good to better and from better.. becoming the best, not for ourselves but for the DIRECTOR, the PRODUCER and the LOVER OF OUR SOULS. 


Father, Holy Spirit, Jesus.

Live

Love

Forgive

Never Give Up

•Show Me•Grow Me•Hold Me•

I am God's Original Masterpiece.

I am God's Workmanship.

I am BELONG to GOD

iBLoG

i Believe Love and Obey GOD.

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what love is..

Its February and almost everyone talks about LOVE. 
and in my own observation there's more single thinking about Feb.14 than any couples. 
and that reminds me: ROSES, CHOCOLATES, COUPLE SHIRT, GIFT, BEARS.. name it. its all there.

its not about this. XD

as for me, February 14 is the day of offering or showing love.
Last Sunday's topic called "What love is". so what love is?


I wanna know what love is..
i want you to show me.


According to 1 Corinthians 13:4-8

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.

its one of the most popular verse in the bible about love. its everywhere. it was our theme in our JS prom. but as i read it the other day, tears overflow in my eyes. God reminded me that He is LOVE.
wow. i just wanted to say wow.


Let's try math. 
if God = Love then

God is patient, God is kind. He does not envy, He does not boast, He is not proud. He does not dishonor others, He is not self-seeking, He is not easily angered, He keeps no record of wrongs. God does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. He always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.GOD never fails.

Live

Love

Forgive

Never Give Up

•Show Me•Grow Me•Hold Me•

I am God's Original Masterpiece.

I am God's Workmanship.

I am BELONG to GOD

iBLoG

i Believe Love and Obey GOD.

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Life would be great.

as i told you before i was reading an e-book about dreams and conquering your Goliath. i was really inspired reading. i just finished it this morning. so 1 by 1 i pray that i will be a dream catcher. that no dream will be left hanged on my head. making a move and knowing it is a must in fulfilling those dreams.

DSLR, Car, iMac, i don't like huge houses.. i love medium sized. :)
I wish this feeling could last unlike the other ones. haha! hate it. must-be-part-of-my-daily-life. the 30 days changes also has an impact on me. but nehh.

di nio lang ako naiintindihan.. BOOM! :)

life would be great if you got your dreams fulfilled.

Live

Love

Forgive

Never Give Up

•Show Me•Grow Me•Hold Me•

I am God's Original Masterpiece.

I am God's Workmanship.

I am BELONG to GOD

iBLoG

i Believe Love and Obey GOD.

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record-breaking and its counting.

ouch! my eye hurts. both of them.
wanna know why? 


let me share you this story.. yesterday was Saturday and today is Sunday.. yesterday, i talked to my brother and have a little crazy conversation.. after that I start reading e-books on my tablet. I'm inspired dreaming dreams and achieving it. it was like i can reach my dreams that time due to excitement, I set a date for that dream. and start acting like there's lots of Mondays and Tuesdays around.


I'm seriously inspired even though i don't know where to start. And I'm actually ready to take that dream and hold it into my hands. (bwhahahaha!) 


excitement.. hmm.. the word excitement..
the feeling of being excited, never let me sleep that night. I'm trying my best to sleep but i can't. i now worried about Sunday's worship service, i may woke up late and go to church late. the worry carried me away and that means setting up every alarm clock to 5:00am. 1:00 is not bad.. 2:00 I start to count down.. 3:00 omg! 2hours left. 


at fall of 4:00 I'll skip sleeping. i told myself. so the time has come and I took again my tablet on my bag to start being inspired again. i even play Fruit Ninja to let the time pass.. 5:00 came, i went to the bathroom and took a shower, the warmest shower evur! i opened the PC. begun singing I Could sing of Your Love Forever and We fall down. on repeat! :)


i went to church and saw lots of happening there.
my words and moves were soooo BRIGHT! really BRIGHT! 
so tired and sleepy. my eyes have lots of baggage today.


The Promotion.
         I'm promoted to a higher position in church, for the youth. and I don't like the offer (seems like a job.lol) I'm non-equipped, i have no calling in leadership and i know it. If I'm going to lead, i can only lead 3 to 4 people.  i don't want to be in that place. what do i know about it?


although i have plans for the KKBs (just plans, like suggestions, wishes etc..) i still don't want to be in it. what can i say? I JUST DON'T WANT IT. after hearing, you know, testimonies of the walls. it create a firewall between me and them.


My battle cry for this year is "whatever it takes, Lord"
but Lord, please. not this one. :|


30 1/2 hours.. still awake! :)
going strong. goodluck to me. :)
what does it take?

Live

Love

Forgive

Never Give Up

•Show Me•Grow Me•Hold Me•

I am God's Original Masterpiece.

I am God's Workmanship.

I am BELONG to GOD

iBLoG

i Believe Love and Obey GOD.

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I EXPECT a MIRACLE today

January 6-7, 2011


so we started the year with a KICK.
we started the year HUNGRY. (you know what i mean, if not keep reading)


the leadership of JIL Church Worldwide declares a Prayer and Fasting starting January 1, I joined them and become hungry. everyday we have this prayer gathering in church, i never missed up. this is the gathering that requires daily bread, for an intimacy with the Lord.


the first seven days is for sanctification, we study about being pure and holy in the sight of God. one day before the culmination of our seven days prayer and fasting, that's Friday. kuya ecko told me that i can sleep in the church that night. I didn't take it seriously, so i laugh and ignore it but kuya ecko told it to pastora, and that's a command. haha! at first I don't like but when Denise came in, she will sleep in the church too.. and I'm looking forward to Grace and Charlie, maybe they'll sleep in the church as well.. but they are not in the church that time, so we have lesser time to inform them.


that night, we went home into our respective temporary homes to take our clothes and everything we need then i came back to church.. we wait for denise to came before we sleep. and as she came, ptra said that she should sleep in kuya ecko's room, she did. while Me and kuya ecko slept beside the denise' room. (formerly kuya ecko's).


i sleep at 12:00mn and i woke up 1:00am and never had a chance to sleep again, i sense it already.. and I can also sense that the church's wi-fi connection is on, I surf the net through my tablet PC and download stuffs while listening to kuya ecko's AM radio.


while reading the bible in my tablet PC, i suddenly saw a shadow rushing in.. denise told me that i should take a bath before anyone else does.. i told her to be the first and while she's taking a bath. i ate my daily bread. :)


before our arrival, we prepare for our foods and packed things up as we wait for others.at the vehicle, i played songs that makes good melody in the road, and while playing and teasing with Hannah Faith.
in Bulacan, we're one of the early birds and seat in the front row.


MIRACLES! there were so much teachings and learnings in that place. so blessed with Ptr. Bobot, Ptr. Joey and Ptra. Vergie. God really anointed them. we cry and be serious about the approaching miracle to us.
we're undeniably blessed in that culmination.


on the way back to Muntinlupa, Ptra warned me about my tablet that should be a blessing not a distraction especially to the kids.. (awww), and as Hannah Faith played in it, denise took my bag and slept in it and i also slept. boom. and when we woke up, we shared Heavenly Things, haha! we shared God's Word and revelation to us.
good times. haha! :))

Live

Love

Forgive

Never Give Up

•Show Me•Grow Me•Hold Me•

I am God's Original Masterpiece.

I am God's Workmanship.

I am BELONG to GOD

iBLoG

i Believe Love and Obey GOD.

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in the next

in the next 5 years
   where would i be, maybe i graduated college that time, and currently on a company with high salary. I'm learning things in this moment, being busy with work and always find time for family and friends. maybe I'm saving money for future use, like to buy my own car, laptop, etc.


in the next 10 years, I maybe achieving dreams one by one, looking forward on what will happen in the near future.maybe I already visit at least 5 country abroad, i budget what i have and having fun with my co-workers.
maybe i still have my own set of real, genuine, true friends.. and my family.. but still adding more of them. maybe I already have a partner in life.


in the next 15 years, I may have a new houses in different places of the world, enjoying new cars, have a stable life, have a child/children and happy with my life.


and one day,  while sitting on a rocking chair and looking up at the sky above, I'm able to reminisce good and bad times in the past that i can laugh about.


to recall good and bad companies..
to think about this blog 
to smile at my family and friends
and lastly to thank God for them.. for His presence in my LIFE.


although we don't know what the future holds..
or what will happen tomorrow..
Surely God is in control of everything.. that's if we allow HIM to PLAN for US.


Happy New Year Dearest people! :)

Live

Love

Forgive

Never Give Up

•Show Me•Grow Me•Hold Me•

I am God's Original Masterpiece.

I am God's Workmanship.

I am BELONG to GOD

iBLoG

i Believe Love and Obey GOD.

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