20 and It's fading

November 27, 2013 - Sobrang namangha ako sa araw na 'to kaya kailangan kong ishare.

"Iinvite lang sana kita sa pre-birthday celebration mo! Hahaha! XD"
Text sa'kin nung kaibigan kong alien. Ininvite nya ko sa sariling kong birthday party. Pre-Birthday Celebration. O diba? Andame nyang alam. Well, Kaya ko nga 'to kaibigan eh. November 26 palang nung nagtext siya kaya pwede pa 'kong humindi. Pero ang plano ko talaga ay magcelebrate ng Pre-Birthday sa 28. Which is matutulog lang ako, Oo, the whole day. Since may dumating na invitation na hindi ko naman mahindian.


Change of plans.
Magkikita kame sa may shell sa may Ayala. Nakarating ako ng dun ng 'di ko sinasabe sa kanya, iniisip ko kase kung saan sya manggagaling. tapos tineks ko na sya nung mahimasmasan na 'ko. Habang hinihintay ko s'ya, tinititigan ko naman ang sarili ko sa salamin. 

"Ang gwapo ko, syete. Nababakla na 'ko sa sarili ko. My goshh!"

Sabe nung lalake dun sa CR. Baliw ata. Nung nakita ko siyang tumatawid na sa kabilang kalsada. 'di ko na maitago 'yung ngiti ko. OMG! She's here. What to do?! What to do? tapos nakita ko 'yung panyo ko. sinubukang itakip sa mukha ko para di nya ko makita. pero too late na. Nakatawa na siya sa'kin.

Mukha lang talaga akong shongek nun. Gusto ko na naman itago 'yung sarili ko sa ilalim ng lupa. Naglakad kame papuntang sakayan pa-SM Aura. Tahimik lang kame. Ewan ko ba. Nagrereserve lang siguro kame ng boses namin kase magtutuos kame mamaya, paubusan ng kwento 'yun. It's been a while since the last time we have this kind of conversation.

Testing the waters moment in the bus on the way to SM Aura. Tease here and there. Laughs over our voices and smiles on our lips.We loved to do this. Really. And I'm so grateful for this moment. It's funny when we recall the first time we're in this place. I took my journal to see the date for myself and she took her phone to check on her notes. We argue about it and then think about what happened that day. We're crazee.

SM Aura Premiere
The next thing I know is we're walking inside the mall. Exchanging thoughts and stuffs on our heads. We first search for this dome called Samsung Hall. Yeng Constantino will have a concert there. I just want to check it out. and then we explore around. look for new stuffs and new things we can talk about. It's a long walkathon with this friend of mine.

When we came up in our senses. We finally sat comfortably in this pink and purple themed tea shop. a place, perfect for the two of us. As usual, we had a long time of conversation from topics ranging but are not limited to: School, Life and Chicken.
but when we're reminded of the main purpose of this weird-two-pair-gathering we started to express contemptuous laughter and massive irritation (on my part) towards what's happening. why? because it's..

Grand-Tell-Day
The grand-tell-day is the day where we tell every thing, from the day her curiosity has been filled up and my cliffhanging needs to be continued. Questions had been raised and answers had been given. This day confronts a particular event: The Game, the Awesome game of mine. It is full of mystery and weirdness. and It really took my breath away from question number 1 to the sweet revelations afterwards. I feel humiliated as I answer those questions. I also find raging anger in her eyes, so I have no choice but to obey. I've never seen her like this before, and honestly, I want to punch her in the face then run for my life and hide with her in the remaining years of my existence.

But of course I didn't do that and I don't want to. See how the word 'Honestly' used? Anyone can use it without accessing it's meaning. but anyway. for about 4 hours, I think, we've been arguing happily and joyfully, in our seat. We also do some weird acts of weirdness in our speeches. aaand yes. we have an awesome question and answer portion with the participation of pen and paper. That's how unearthly we are somehow? And time runs faster that time.

Before leaving the teashop, she handed me something, a white-colored-box. Don't know what's inside but she said, I can only open it on my birthday. Soo much agony for the moment. We should end at Ayala Triangle, but we end up discovering some cool places in the mall. Such as the Samsung Hall on rooftop and its surroundings. Too bad it's raining but we appreciate the view from the top. It's amazing.

We continue our talks in the bus on our way home. It's a great day for my Pre-Birthday Celebration. Too good for me. So thankful. :)

//20AndItsFading
//PreBirthdayCelebration
//WhiteColoredBox
//sebajisoka

Birthday masterplan

That moment when all the plans for the weekend have been cancelled.
Should I be sad or what? This weekend, I should be in 1 of the following places:

Star City
Enchanted Kingdom
Nuvali
SM Aura (Yeng's Concert)

It's a great day to spend my birthday tho, but I think I'll stick to the 1st plan that popped into my head months ago. Lemme share it to you.

On 28th, I'll be sleeping all day long.
On 29th, 

• I'll woke up at 5am to jog at baywalk, bayanan and leave a note to my family
• Explore the Sunken Garden and be amazed in God's wonderful creations
• Festival Mall for my Birthday article
• And I'll end in Madrigal Business Park

Loner type celebrant. Well?! Who cares?

I'm already blessed. Alone with God. Yipee. :)

but I don't think it will happened. You see, there are things due for tomorrow. 

still blessed by activities.

//BirthdayMasterplan

//sebajisoka

Patty @ 18

"Tawa ng tawa sila sa inyo." - MamaDear, talking about the reaction of the individuals about my new sideline.

and no. no. no. I'm not a clown. I don't even look like one, but just like clowns, my new sideline involves a birthday party. :)


Today, I woke up with my un-snoozeable and living alarm clock, also known as my mom. She woke me up for 1 great reason: I have to. 
No, really, after my mom's raging shouts, I woke up. why she woke me up?
well, I have a meeting. A meeting with my childhood playmate and her cousin. we will be hosting a debut. a debut of their another cousin and my friend, also.

O.O

I'm quite confident about this 'cause I already host a debut earlier this year, and I did it alone and it has no program and it's on the spot. And if you ask me how was it. It was EPIC. Sooo Epic that it fails. but someone contradicts "It's not epic fail.. Galing mu nga eh. Impromptu. Haha. Nakss. Btw, that's a compliment" a close friend told me. To be honest, I want to host but I don't see any skills in hosting with me. So I set it aside.

and now. here I am talking to my new found friends about our plan, the program and some scripts. our brains mushed-up altogether for a purpose, to celebrate Patty's 18th with comedy and fun. And then we ate our breakfast at 11am, by the way we started the meeting around 9am.

We don't really have a script but we have assignments. we paste twists on the program and the common 18s. Here's what we come up with:


18 Gifts with Trivia Questions
18 Candles, Messages about good health and about study are strictly prohibited, anyone who will be found guilty must pay us hundreds.
18 Chocolates, We prepared crazy and obvious questions for the kids
18 Roses, every guy must have a pick up line before dancing with the debutante.

It was fun, although some of our jokes gone by wind, we still have faithful fans who stayed with us (thanks to my mom and my brother and our families). I'm so thankful with them. I'll never give you in detailed stuffs. Pictures were not yet uploaded. :(

In the end. still, I don't consider myself good in this field but I'm humbled by their response. I see that they've enjoyed the party and laugh about our lame jokes. I hope for more parties! :D

It happened last November 9.

//MCs
//Patty@18
//sebajisoka

Feel The Love

"Happy Birthday Jebs. We love you. HAHA"

She told me this right before she leave. I totally not expecting those words from her. I mean, who would say that to me? Really?! This is so significant that I can't ignore and contain. The reason I'm posting this. LOL

I don't want to think if it's true or what. It will just complicate everything. but I want to feel the luv. yes. feel the love. I want to close my eyes and repeat the scene again and again. Until it becomes a melody. It's music to my ears. 

What I learn from this is (1.) when you have something nice to say, say it.
why? You'll never know how your words will touch a person.
And (2.) Don't be afraid to say how much you love someone.
and (3.) You never really know who loves you. :))

Now, I'm wondering, does she think that I'll appreciate what she said?
or does she thought about this, that I'll be blogging about what she said?

well, we don't know.
what I know is I need to feel the luv.

//FeelTheLove
//sebajisoka

"Parang bestfriend na din kita eh."

"Parang bestfriend na din kita eh."

She told me during her birthday few months ago. and hearing words like that make my heart roar like a lion on the wild. I always think of 'bestfriend' and 'Jabes' are antonyms. I mean, it contradict everything. so for me, It's(best friend) a word type of present wrapped with love. ayi. much.


So anyway, I'm not gonna talk about it now. I'm going to share about what happened. After doing my "takas" to the elders. I went straight  right to Festival Mall. I met my friend outside the mall, where she told me so. We should go somewhere where we should be doing something important. but we end up talking over the stairs.

We talked about many things in life and I love the way how she viewed it. She relates movies and everything in life and God's participation in our journey in it.   She shares about many things at first and later I do almost all the talking. And I discover new thing about me. I love sharing and telling stories.

we also talked about our interrupted conversation few weeks ago. I really feel glad to have friends like her. Yey! I'm surrounded by awesome people. and I'm learning from them. really. Because if not. I'll never gonna blog about this. what will be the point right?

We stayed for about 2 hours just talking. and learning from each other (Okay. Let's just assume that she learned something from me) I really enjoy the 2 hours we had. but I feel guilty about someone. I assumed that she's busy. and there you gooo. She's not after all. too bad.

I really enjoy this day. So blessed and so equipped.

//ParangBestFriendNaDinKitaEh
//sebajisoka

Overhaul

I'm on an overhaul. yes. I'm trying to fix some things in my life.
Eliminating things that are not for me.
Taking things that are meant for me.
it may sound selfish but, let me be selfish for a while, besides it is in your mind only. I'm being selfish to be selfless. complex. right.

I'm re-creating. rebuilding. re-flaming my dreams. I lost it years ago. and I want it back. I want my life back. A life of dreams and wonders. I want my old point of view about life and what's ahead. and of course, with the help of God.

Pathetically speaking, in these past few years I've been shooting aimlessly. 
Now, I'll make sure it's bulls eye. I believe, I'm already equipped and I keep equipping myself with wisdom and knowledge.
It's time to put things into practice. and I already working on my Master Plan that I keep on rediscovering and re-overhaul-ing, depending on what God has planned. As I prayed before..

If Your plan is to make me realize the importance of planning, and making me plan for myself and later ruin it. I would be glad. It emphasized that You have better plans than I have. that I should stick to Your plan. And this time, I trust You.

So, I'm on an overhaul. As the dictionary said:

Over - Extending directly upward from
Haul - Pull or drag with effort or force

Pulling my life upside to its end and re-create dreams that God above planted in my heart.
And in association with this 'recreation' here's my new anthem. :))



//AllIveEveNeeded
//RecreatingDreams
//Overhaul
//sebajisoka

When November Came

I've been trying to bring colors to my day. really! but then I realize that why should I?
why is it important to me to celebrate that day?

when November came, I wished for a night full of stars.
when November came, I set goals for myself.
when November came, plans after plans are rushing in my head.
when November came, I tried pouring meaning to my everyday.

maybe this is a wake up call.
maybe I'm just learning things.
maybe God set this altogether to reveal Himself to me.

I don't know. I'm not sure. and I'm always like this. I wonder how can I go on from this.
Somebody! Punch me in the face! Real hard! 


//WhenNovemberCame
//sebajisoka