So, here I am, in the middle of the night. Trying to compile my thoughts and attempting to provide feedback on what's happening in my life right now. As I look upon the nothingness. I realized that I've been very blessed, with the things that I have and the people that surrounds me. And I'm not attempting to impress anyone anymore. I escaped some poisonous relationships. Pressed the refresh button in a new Church that guides me towards Christ. Acquired new relationships. I'm starting to gain the things that I've always wanted - Bass Guitar, Cameras and soon, Laptop. Started a YouTube Channel. I'm learning some Stocks and I'm invested for the future. My favorite sports team is on the right track. I get to travel more frequently and I'm enjoying everything right now and trying to live through now. I know that it's not much of an achievement but just imagine how messed up my life if I don't have my girlfriend to help me and be with me. The one who pushes me to be a better person. "pushes" is actually a cheap word for it, but truly, she inspired and inspiring me to be a better person. I'm so blessed to have her and I owe it all to God.
I've been hearing this song played around recently, whether in a bus, somewhere around social media or in the office speaker specifically on a rainy day.
It makes me smile whenever I think about it.
Just like everybody else, this song makes me ask "why?"
Well, few years ago. I'm on a struggle figuring this all out. I was deceived that I know better and it makes me sad, really sad. I had this emotional nights and endless thinking of a solution to make things work out.
I thought that she's for me and we're meant for each other. I thought that I'll be the man for her and I'm willing to give everything up. Then, time passes by, things have changed and my decisions created a path that would lead me to where I am right now.
To go back to the question that I had. Why can't it be the two of us?
Simple answer: Jasmin.
Complex answer: God prepared me for this, well, I think both of us. God molded me to wait and be patient. He made sure that I'll be the man that He wants me to be, the same goes for her. And we met halfway as He fulfill each other's long-standing prayer. And now, together, we're being transformed from glory to glory.
I know and I believe that God created us for each other. ( I don't mean to be overly cheesy or corny - viewer discretion is advised)
And in case you're all wondering, I courted her with marriage on my mind. I'm in that point of not playing games of short-term relationships. That's a commitment that I've made. That's just me.
It's an emotional season for the Celtics, to say the least.
In just 5 minutes of the first game of the season, Celtics recent free agent signing had a gruesome injury that declared him out of the season.
We, the fans, tried to cope with it. Understanding that the Banner 18 will be delayed for a year. but, more minutes for the rookie Jayson Tatum and the youngs Jaylen Brown, Marcus Smart, Terry Rozier which will develop them into monster once Hayward comes back.
After falling 2 games in a row, we can call it quits and wait for next season but no. Kyrie became frustrated and shouted the magic words that lead the Celtics into a 16 game winning streak.
Fast forward in ending the season, we sign the Moose, Greg Monroe, the celtics was grinding, full of injuries. To the point where, the celtics starts the bench (calling them the RedMaine Claws) but still win games. Jayson and Jaylen became a dynamic young duo in the run. Marcus Smart is still one of the best defender in the game, Marcus Morris take over close games and Terry Rozier burst into Scary Terry.
It appears to be a promising season and we're being teased by Hayward's fast recovery.
But the dream became a nightmare, Kyrie's supposed to be a minimal knee surgery needed to be fixed and will have a major one, causing him to be sidelined for the rest of the season and the playoffs.
Our banner 18 dreams faded away.
On a positive side, youngsters will have a playoff experience that will make them hungry and aggressive the next season.
Hey! I signed up as a Content Creator in YouTube for about a year now, but I've been editing and shooting videos ever since I fell in love with it few years back. I used to edit videos for projects in college and some church presentation. I learned more about vlogging a year after I learned about Blogging and I think it was last year when Vlogging became huge here in the Philippines. I don't want to sound pretty conceited but I publish my own Vlog a year after I started Blogging. That's in 2010. It is called "My first Vlog" on my "sebajisoka" channel and it's very silly and I'm with one of my best pal in college, McLean. Years passed by, I discovered Matthew Santoro, he publish FACTS videos. I became interested with the nuggets of information that he shares. Later on, I found out about his vlogs on his 2nd channel. He vlogs daily at a time and I watch it all the time. Then, 2 years ago, I started vlogging more frequently. It's on private because you know, confidence issue. Now, I wanted to create something. I want to start a channel that focus on something. For now, we have Jassiee and Jay Bucket List. And it's all about our adventures and achieving bucket list.
We're on our way to risking tons of everything and hopefully it will turn out great! :)
So, I was browsing my subscription box in YouTube and I stumbled upon this video about a year-end recap that ends with a reminder to thank God for the highs and the lows of the past year and expect more from Him this year. (Which makes me think my plans this year)
Here are my goals for 2018!
Read more books
- I bought couple of books in the past years that I haven't read yet but I'll start with these two bad boys by Judah Smith.
Learn more about the art of Photography
- Photography is fun, all those ISO, aperture and shutter speeds. Need to learn those and be a better picture-taker. (and Videotake. hahaha) :D
Publish more Blogs and Vlogs!
- I've been inconsistent with my Blogs, I'll make sure to get out of this slumping and publish meaningful articles. And yeah, the Content Creator thing, I'm ready to check boxes on #TheBucketList. #JassieeAndJay
Serve God!
- I'm praying to go back to the ministry. Will I be in multimedia or music team's bassist or writer or wherever He leads me. It's definitely a journey and that God will unveil the destination soon.
Matoma ft. Yeng Constantino - Wonderful Life (Mi Oh My)
Coldplay - Up and Up
5 Seconds of Summer - Everything I didn't Say
Reese Lansangan - Grammar Nazi
Janina Vela - Hesitate
Jesus Culture - Alive In You ft. Kim Walker-Smith
Jaime Grace - Just A Friend (Feat. Manwell of Group 1 Crew)
Planetshakers - I Came For You
Mid-Cities Worship - Beauty For Ashes
Rush of Fools - Undo
MOMENT OF A DAY IN A YEAR:
This "Day" is quite different, emotions stirred up as I stir my morning Coffee + Milo mix. It's a cold day to start with lot of emotion on my back. Walking through the streets holding my heart tight and having decisions mushed all over the sidewalk. I know that He has a plan, but I can't see it for now.
There are challenges as I ate lunch, it's hard to cook and it's uncooked to be honest, I sway all over it and tried my best. I realized that this is the the food that I wanted. It's raw and not on my favorite list.
Being a friend to someone I almost hated is quite good. You'll notice a different point of view, realizing that we can make things better in many ways. As I went to this coffee shop for merienda, I'm amazed that I'm not that emotional anymore, and there are lots of blessing around me, as we go along this day, I saw opportunities and dreams that I can start, so we did, it's slow but I know that this is going to be great.
Upon dinner, God made everything special. I know I had lots of failure but hey. Decisions had been made and He make beauty for ashes. *1 difficult-handshake-with-Jesus-because-He's-that-cool.
BIBLE STORY OF THE YEAR:
But they cried out all together, saying, "Away with this man, and release for us Barabbas!"Luke 23:18
THE LAST SONG:
These are the last songs I've played in the previous years
2008: Declaration - David Cook 2009: Centerfield - Stellar Kart 2010: Your Name High - Hillsong United 2011: Happy - Ayiesha Woods 2012: Keep The Candle Burning - Point of Grace 2013: When You Call My Name - Vineyard Music UK 2014: Like the Sun - Stellar Kart 2015: Kung Wala Ka - Hale 2016: I Could Sing of Your Love Forever - Hillsong 2017: Take Me Away - Lifehouse
I know that this song will be the theme of my 2018! A LOVE LIFE
Why so serious?
SPIRITUALITY. RELATIONSHIP. GOD
There are lots of changes, but SERVING YOU and KNOWING YOU MORE are my priority.
